An ominous feeling has been metaphorically crushing my windpipe for the past hour.
So I called my family. Teal, Dad, my foster sister, Elsa, and even that grumpy fucker Agnus, Dad’s husband, who raised me and my twin sister.
Everyone seemed safe.
Unless they lied to me?
I have a weird sense of intuition. I always have, ever since I realized that it’s possibly the only thing that’s able to save me.
That aside from myself, no one will stand up for me, no one will give me what was taken. So I had to rely on my sixth sense more often than not, and it’s that intuition that saved my arse more times than I can count. It’s what made me escape with my skin unscathed.
So I don’t ignore it.
Ever.
I think about calling Dan to make sure he’s all right, but fuck that wanker. I’m still contemplating the best way to get back at him for what he insinuated today.
My blood boils just thinking about him near Anastasia. If he so much as touches a hair on her head, I might as well quit being a lawyer and become a criminal.
So, no, I won’t complain if he meets his maker sooner rather than later.
Besides, he’s definitely not the reason behind the clenching and unclenching of my chest or the fucking twist in my heart.
I refuse to think about why I’m here, in front of Anastasia’s flat, when I’m supposed to be in a meeting, but I am.
Here.
And the feelings are escalating to dangerous heights.
There’s no way in fuck I could concentrate in that meeting when my ribcage was about to burst open. Aside from my family, there’s only one other person who could be the cause of this reaction.
I use the spare key she gave me a while back and open the door slowly. For some reason, it feels as if I shouldn’t make any sudden movements.
The lock is a bit crooked and I pause at that, but only for a second, before I step inside.
The flat is dark, silent, which is different from usual, or at least, ever since I started coming here on a regular basis. On normal nights, Anastasia would either be singing along to her favorite old songs in a low voice, or she’d be silently listening to them while typing away on her laptop. Either way, the music would be blasting.
None of those scenarios are present. There’s no music or typing sounds that I’m starting to only associate with her.
The defective silence slowly gives way to something more frantic and ominous. As if someone is rummaging through things.
Sure enough, when I stride to the closet, I find her shoving clothes into a bag, her face flushed and her movements sporadic.
I hit the light switch. “What are you doing?”
Anastasia jumps, her wild eyes meeting mine. She’s not wearing the glasses tonight and she appears so young and fragile, like a rose that can be broken with a single touch.
Her chest rises and falls with heavy breaths that she doesn’t seem to be able to control.
“Knox.”
My name is a haunted whisper on her lips, a sound that she doesn’t seem to be able to control.
She clears her throat. “Shouldn’t you be in a meeting?”
“It’s over.” Lie. I left early, feigning an emergency, and from what I’m seeing, I’m glad I did. “Where are you going?”
She swallows a few consecutive times, her blunt nails digging into the strap of the bag. “Away.”
“Away where?”
“Just away. I’m leaving.”
The dooming feeling from earlier crashes against my ribcage and a blind sense of anger spreads throughout my bloodstream. “Like fuck you are.”
“You can’t tell me what to do.”
“Well, I am. And you’re not going anywhere, Anastasia.”
“This whole thing was only meant to be temporary.”
“This whole thing?”
She throws her hands in the air. “The sex, the arrangement, me being here. All of it. I was never meant to stay.”
“Well, I’m telling you that you will stay, whether you like it or not.”
Moisture gathers in her lower lids. “You…don’t understand.”
“I do, perfectly. You’re running away again, just like you ran from your previous life, because that’s what you do best, right? Leaving. Running. All the fucking time.”
She releases the bag, letting it fall to the ground, and barges in front of me. “You don’t have the right to stand there and judge me when you have no clue about my life.”
“And whose fault is that? You’re the one who’s hiding on top of running.”
“That’s none of your business.”
“I’m making it my business, my little liar. Did you really think I’d stand by and let you run as if I never happened?”
“You should.”
“Think again, beautiful. Do you know me to be the type who gives up? Ever?”
Her shoulders hunch as she comes to the same conclusion herself. We might have been together for only a few weeks, but she knows me better than anyone else.
She knows I wouldn’t let it go.
“Why don’t you tell me what’s going on instead of choosing the running route?”
“I can’t.” She sounds so pained, so defeated, as if the weight of the world has settled on her slender shoulders.
So I soften my voice, “Does it have something to do with your family?”
“You don’t need to know.”
“So it does.” I pause. “Is that why the lock was messed up. Was someone here?”
She stiffens. “N-no.”
“You’re such a bad fucking liar. Who was here?”
“No one.”
My hand shoots out and wraps around her throat. It’s so I can attach myself to her, to keep myself from letting my anger loose, because that motherfucker is on the verge of burning everything in its path as we speak.
Her eyes snap to mine and even though they’re brown and fake, the emotions behind them aren’t. There’s a multitude of them, rising and falling in the favor of others. I don’t recognize them all, but I recognize the most prominent one—fear.
Not of me—or at least, I hope not.
But it’s there and it’s eating at something inside her.
And inside me.
I never thought I would ever be attuned to another human being other than my twin sister. Never thought I’d feel her emotions before she’s even aware of them herself.
But at this moment, right here, I know, I just know that I would do anything to make these emotions go away.
“Anastasia, I’m on your side here, so don’t make me force you to speak. Who was here?”
“No…one…” It’s a whisper now, a haunted one at that.
My hold tightens on her, the pads of my fingers digging into the sensitive flesh of her pale throat. When I speak, it’s in a low warning tone. “Anastasia…”
“Just leave me alone, Knox.” A tear slides down her cheek. “Let me go.”
“No.”
“Why? Just why the hell do you keep holding on to me?”
“Because I’m not done with you.” And I probably never will be. But I don’t voice that thought aloud in case it would freak the hell out of her as fast as it’s growing roots inside me.
“What if I’m done with you?”
“You’ll have to mean that first, and even if you are, I’ll win you over again.”
“Even if I hurt you?”
“Even if you hurt me.”
“You’re not supposed to say that.” Her tears soak her cheeks unchecked.
“Then what am I supposed to say?”
“That you won’t let me or anyone hurt you.”
“I won’t.”
She swallows. “Promise.”
“I promise. I also promise that no one will hurt you under my watch.”
Her lips part, then she swallows thickly. “I never asked for your protection.”
“You’ll get it anyway.” I release her throat. “Now, continue packing, because you’re coming with me.”
“W-what?”
“I’m not leaving you in a place someone broke into, Anastasia. You’ll be safer with me.”
“But…”
“No buts. This is not up for negotiation.”
“You…don’t have to do this for me.”
“Who said it’s only for you? I get to fuck you anytime I like, so I have advantages as well.”
She smiles a little through the tears, even though it’s sad, even though the fear isn’t completely gone. But I’ll make sure to make it go away if it’s the last thing I do.
Because Anastasia is mine and I protect what’s mine.
