Madeline’s POV
I was already on the verge of tears and seeing Dimitri’s angry face when we walked into our office didn’t really help.
“Where you going to tell me about that fucker?” he asked angrily, crossing his arms over his chest.
I looked at Ellie and she just raised an eyebrow at me.
“I just walked in, Dimitri,” I said, looking back at him. “When was I supposed to tell you?”
“What fucker?” Will asked, furrowing his brows.
The way Dimitri was looking at me was breaking my heart. He was angry. He was disappointed. He looked at me like I did something horrible.
“I told you to mind-link me if anything happened,” he said, tightening his jaw. “You should have mind-linked me the second he approached you.”
“Who approached her?” Will asked worriedly.
“Seth,” Ellie said, sighing loudly. “He asked her to go to the diner with him.”
Will mumbled a curse and looked at Dimitri.
“Who is Seth?” Ali asked quietly.
Everyone ignored her. Dimitri was getting more and more pissed by the second. I wanted him to look away because his eyes were burning my skin.
“Why didn’t you mind-link me, Madeline?” he asked angrily.
My chest tightened. It felt like a hand squeezed my lungs.
“Because he isn’t a threat,” I said quietly. “He’s a friend…”
“Who wants to fuck you,” Dimitri interrupted me, slamming his fist against the desk. “Please explain to me how he isn’t a threat, Madeline.”
I tried to take a deep breath, but I couldn’t. I was so tired. I just wanted to take a hot shower and go to sleep. I wanted Dimitri to go back to the way he was this morning. Why was he so angry at me? Did I really make such a big mistake? I told him no.
“Calm down, Dimitri,” Will sighed.
Dimitri looked at him and I thought he was going to punch him.
“Talk to me when there is a man who would want to fuck your mate,” Dimitri said, looking back at me.
Will clenched his fists and took a deep breath.
“Explain, Madeline,” Dimitri growled at me.
I could feel my heart cracking.
“Because I would never let him do anything,” I said quietly. “I don’t want him. I don’t love him.”
Did Dimitri really think that I would ever let Seth do anything? I talked to him about it. I told him that I loved my mate. Seth knew that nothing could ever happen between us.
My heart shattered and I could feel my stomach twisting. I was going to throw up.
Was Dimitri afraid I would do something? Did he think that I would cheat on him? Did he think that I would leave him? Didn’t he trust me?
“Oh, but you want to go to dinner with him?” Dimitri asked mockingly.
I glanced at Ellie and furrowed my brows. Didn’t she tell him that I told Seth I would ask Dimitri if we could go, not just me?
“No,” I said and it was getting harder and harder for me to hide the pain in my voice. “I told him I would ask you if you and I could go. I would never go alone with him.”
Dimitri narrowed his eyes and tightened his jaw.
“You don’t trust me, do you?” I asked, my voice trembling. “You think that I would cheat on you?”
I felt tears burning the corners of my eyes.
My own wolf refused to shift and she left me alone. My mate didn’t trust me. He thought that I would cheat and leave him. He would probably leave me too. He would leave me just like my wolf left me. He would leave me just like my father left me.
Everyone abandoned me. My father, my mother, my pack, my wolf. I always ended up alone.
He was going to leave me too. He didn’t trust me.
“No, Madeline,” he said, but I didn’t believe him. “I don’t trust him.”
My head was throbbing and my stomach was in a knot. I felt like I was going to throw up.
He didn’t believe me. He didn’t trust me. He would leave me just like everyone else did.
I should have left when I had the chance. I should have left when Janet told me to leave.
‘Madeline!’ Skye screamed at me, but I ignored her.
I pushed her back as far as I could. She left me. I didn’t need her.
My heart was going a mile a minute. I felt like I was going to pass out. I needed to leave. I needed to get out of this office. I needed to get away from them.
I was on the verge of crying and I didn’t want to do it in front of them.
“You are not allowed to see him, Madeline,” Dimitri said, but I could barely hear him. “You are not allowed to talk to him ever again.”
My heart was going to jump out of my throat. I could only hear my blood rushing through my veins. My lungs kept getting tighter and tighter. I couldn’t get enough air in.
He thought I would cheat. He didn’t trust me. He didn’t want me. He would leave me.
I felt Skye trying to push through, but I used every bit of strength I had left to keep her away.
I could see Dimitri’s lips moving, but I couldn’t hear what he was saying. I could hear my own heartbeat in my ears, though. I could hear how fast it was beating.
I had to get out of there. Immediately.
I forced my legs to move and I started running out of there. I couldn’t breathe anymore.
“Madeline!” Dimitri screamed. “Where the fuck are you going?!”
I ignored him and just continued running.
“Give her some space,” I heard someone saying. “She will come back.”
“Some space?!” Dimitri screamed. “Some fucking space?!” I don’t…”
I couldn’t hear the rest because I covered my ears. I didn’t want to hear the rest. I didn’t want to hear anything anymore.
I felt warm tears rolling down my cheeks and I broke down sobbing. Thankfully, I was just outside of my room so no one saw me. I got inside and closed the door.
My knees buckled and I fell to the floor. I couldn’t stop sobbing and gasping for air.
He didn’t trust me. He didn’t want me. He would leave me.
Would he go back to Savannah? Would he start a family with her? Would he raise her child? Would he love her?
‘Madeline, no!’ I heard Skye screaming, but I ignored her.
She didn’t want me. She refused to shift. She left me alone. I didn’t want to hear her voice. I didn’t want to talk to her.
I didn’t want to talk to anyone.
I wanted my mom.
I really, really wanted my mom.
I wanted her to hold me. I wanted her to tell me that everything was going to be okay. I wanted to hear her voice. I wanted to see her.
I just wanted my mom.
Another sob broke through my lips and I pulled my knees to my chest.
“Mom,” I cried out.
She was the only one who didn’t leave me. She was taken from me. She was taken too soon and she was taken when I needed her the most.
Maddie? Will’s mind-link made me flinch. Where are you?
I ignored him. I didn’t want to talk to him. I wanted my mom.
Skye whined loudly.
Maddie, just tell me where you are, please. Will mind-linked me again.
I didn’t want to. He would come here and I didn’t want him here. He probably thought I would cheat on Dimitri too. He probably already advised him to leave me.
I felt the shattered pieces of my heart stab my insides. A pain I never felt before made me scream.
He was going to leave me.
I lost him. I lost my mate.
