SERAPHINA
Monday morning has taken an unnerving turn.
From: admin@
northendtesting.com Subject: North End Medical Center Patient Portal Update
Message: A new test result is available in your patient portal. To view it, click here or download our app here.
Overwhelming nausea barrels into me as I read the email again.
This has to be some kind of technical error. The nurse I spoke to this morning said they don’t give test results of this nature over the phone, and that’s why I received an emailed appointment confirmation over the weekend.
Given that, it makes no sense they’d upload my results onto the internet for someone to see by themselves. Unless this is a good sign. Maybe it means it’s negative. There would be no harm in putting a negative test result up for the patient to see before their appointment, right?
Hands shaking, I navigate into the app and enter my login information. Before the landing page can load, I lose my nerve and swipe out.
I should wait.
My heart thunders in my ears as I stare at the screen. I can’t breathe. I can’t think. I know I shouldn’t look, but I won’t be able to accomplish anything until I see that result.
Fifty-fifty.
One in two.
I hold my breath, watching the little rainbow wheel spin around and around as the page loads.
Please be negative. Please be negative. Please be negative.
It’s not.
