Anaiah’s POV
Putting on my leather pants and sleeveless top, I throw a leather jacket over it and wear my hair up. This week has been honestly hard for me and people don’t know fully what happened, or the loss I went through. They expect me to smile and laugh like before, to work and interact, in short, to be their perfect Luna Queen.
I’m looking into the mirror, trying to smile but I’m not feeling it as my muscles are protesting against it.
I can do this, I can do this. I am not hurting at all. I’m a perfect Luna. Leondre walks out of my bathroom into the closet and kisses my temple. My mate does his best to cheer me up and I try harder to make him think he’s succeeding.
He grabs my wrist just as I’m about to leave, I look up at him and he asks; ‘ Are you sure you’re okay?’
I sigh and get my hand from him,
‘I’m so fucking tired of everyone asking me that, I’m FINE, stop treating me like an egg, I won’t break,’ I snap, he seems to be taken back and tilts his head.
‘Just leave me alone for a while, it’s suffocating being hovered,’ I sigh.
He raises his eyebrows in surprise but murmurs ‘ Yea, fine,’ And goes back to another part of the closet, I take in a deep breath when I realize that the walls were shaking.
Way to keep your calm, Anaiah. I try to go to him but decide against it.
I leave the house and ask Jake to take me to the North New pack. They are putting Rosario to rest today, it should have been a week ago but her brother delayed to arrive.
Reaching Alpha Jacob’s mansion, one of the maids directs me to the main room where everyone is, they are all dressed in smart black clothes. Arya gives the baby she was cradling to a nanny and approaches me, hugging me tightly.
‘Thank you for coming, I know-‘
‘Stop, please,’ I roll my eyes, lately my temper is out of control, and only because they treat me like fragile glass. I approach the others and to my surprise, Alpha Mary is here too. I go to Jacob first,
‘I’m sorry for your loss, Alpha Jacob,’ I tell him, he smiles halfheartedly at me and thank me, I approach Erickson and Alpha Mary, Erickson kisses my cheek in greeting, and Mary bows in respect. Next, I go to see the kids, and tears well in my eyes, I forgot how to breathe for a second there, they are perfect.
‘Queen Anaiah, meet Chadwick, Erickson, and Rosario Jones,’ Smiles Jacob. They are so pretty and I kiss their tiny hands.
‘Hi Triplets, My name is Anaiah but you can call me aunty,’ I say in a baby voice, making the elders chuckle. I greet Reece, Rosario’s younger brother. He’s charming and I’m most glad that Arya and Jacob are there for him at this time.
After the short introduction, we go to the burial site, there is already a large tombstone with the words; Rosario Michaels, A mother, A friend, and Sister, you’ll always be in our hearts.
The speeches that everyone gave were touching and when we went back home, we had a barbecue.
‘Can we talk?’ I hear Erickson say, I nod and follow him into the other part of the garden.
I follow Erickson to a huge white swing where we sit. We are silent for a while but his eyes are fixed on me. I put my hands down on my lap, fidgeting a little, Erickson makes me feel like he’s reading my soul and I don’t like that
‘I’m okay,’ I say, he gives me a tiny smile but there is something else in his gaze so I feel the need to justify myself
‘I swear, I’m alright,’ I repeat, this time convincingly.
‘No you’re not, you lost someone dear to you and It’s okay not to be okay,’ He says gently.
‘Your seer lied, my child won’t be the great leader she foresaw because it’s dead, I killed it,’ I feel tears in my eyes and I begin to cry again. He extends his hand and holds mine, squeezing it for comfort.
‘I’m so so sorry for your loss, beautiful Anaiah,’ He pauses
‘Remember, the Seer said your child will rule the supernatural, she didn’t say which one,’ He reminds, we stay there for a long time while I sniff softly. After I calm my erratic breaths, I smile and ask;
‘So you and Alpha Mary, huh,’ I say quizzically, he chuckles and throws his head back.
‘We are just developing as friends, hopefully in a few months or years we will develop as something,’
‘YEARS?!’
‘Yeah,’
Is he kidding me right now? No woman will wait for so long. We continue to discuss until we receive news that there was a rogue attack on the border between the Royal pack and the North pack. He gets up and stretches his hand to help me up
‘This is exactly what you need to unleash the anger you have bottled up,’
