Logan’s POV
I had to hold back from trying to slam my body against that fucking glass window between us.
I wanted to slam my body against it until it broke. I wanted to get inside that fucking room and take my mate into my arms. Seeing her, but not being able to hold her was torture. It was pure fucking torture.
“I am so sorry, Logan,” she said after Andrew finally walked out of the cabin.
He refused to leave at first, but Emma convinced him to go. We wanted some alone time. I needed her to tell me why she did it. I needed her to tell me why she didn’t tell me her plans.
I already knew the answers, but I needed her to tell me. I didn’t know why, but I needed to hear it from her. I felt like maybe it would get easier if she repeated it. I thought it would be easier for me to accept it if she convinced me that she made the right choice.
“Why, baby, why?” I asked as I leaned my forehead against the cold glass. “Why did you leave me?”
Emma approached the glass and placed her hand on it. She rubbed her thumb on it as if she was trying to rub my cheek.
“I didn’t leave you,” she cried out. “I could never leave you. I love you more than anything, Logan.”
I knew that. I knew that she didn’t leave me. I knew that she was doing that for our daughter. I knew it all, but I couldn’t accept it. I couldn’t hold her and it was killing me.
I felt a tear fall on my cheek and Emma whimpered.
“I will be back soon, okay?” she cried out. “I am not leaving you. I promise, Logan. I am not leaving your or our children.”
I wanted to hold her. Even if it was just for a second. I just wanted to feel her in my arms.
“Tell me that you love me, please,” she said, her voice trembling. “Please, Logan, I need to hear it.”
I looked at her beautiful eyes and another tear fell on my cheek.
“I love you, Emma,” I said and she sobbed quietly. “I love you with my entire heart and soul. I won’t leave this cabin until you are back in my arms. I won’t let you leave me. I won’t leave you alone.”
She closed her eyes and bent her head down.
“I love you, baby,” I repeated wishing I could just snap my fingers and make the glass between us disappear.
Not knowing how long would it be until I got to feel her body next to mine was killing me. It could be hours. It could be days. It could be…
No.
It couldn’t be more than a few days. That would destroy me. That would kill me.
‘Leon?’ I called my wolf. ‘Are you okay?’
I didn’t even pay attention to him. I was completely focused on Emma. I didn’t even remember him.
‘I am angry,’ he mumbled. ‘But I am trying to keep it together. Eliza is helping to calm me down.’
‘Good,’ I said. ‘Don’t stop talking to her, okay? When the darkness took over Sophia, Stella was our main source of information. You can’t lose contact with Eliza in case the same thing happens to Emma.’
‘I know, Logan,’ Leon said. ‘I am putting all my effort into our connection. I won’t lose her.’
I took a deep breath and released it slowly.
‘We won’t lose them, Logan,’ Leon added quietly.
I gulped and another tear fell on my cheek. I had no idea what would I do if she left this world before me. I couldn’t see myself living without her. I wasn’t strong enough to do it. I wasn’t strong like she was. I was a weak man, and I wouldn’t be able o continue without her next to me.
I was nothing without her.
She made me strong. She made me a good Alpha. She made me a good father. She was the source of everything beautiful in my life. My day started and ended with her next to me. She was my best friend and the only one I wanted to talk to every day. I couldn’t imagine a spending a second without her. Just thinking about it made my chest spasm and all the air leave my body.
“Emma,” I called her, trying to sound calm.
She looked at me and smiled through her tears.
“I need you to listen to me carefully,” I said and she nodded immediately. “I need you to memorize my words. I need you to remember them always.”
She furrowed her eyebrows a little and gave me another small nod.
“You will fight this thing inside you,” I said sternly. “You will fight it and you will win.”
I took a small pause to focus on remaining calm.
“You will not leave me,” I continued. “You will not lose. You will fight it and you will win. You will get out of this room. You will come back to me.”
She took a deep breath and nodded.
“I am not letting you leave me after everything we’ve been through,” I continued sternly. “I am not letting you leave me after I fought so fucking hard for you. I am not letting you leave me after I finally showed you how fucking much I love you.”
A tear fell on her cheek and she let out a shaky breath.
“We have two beautiful children together,” I continued, trying hard to keep my voice from trembling, but failing miserably. “The love we have for you is bigger than anything in this world. You can’t leave us. You can’t leave your family.”
She sobbed loudly and placed both of her hands on the glass. She bent her head down and I couldn’t see her beautiful eyes anymore.
“I won’t, Logan,” she cried out. “I promise. I will fight and I will come back to you.”
I tried to swallow the lump in my throat. It was threatening to suffocate me.
“Look up, baby,” I said, my voice trembling.
She listened to me and I got to see her eyes again.
“I love you,” I said, trying to show her just how much through our connection.
She shivered and closed her eyes.
“I love you too,” she mumbled and her emotions washed over me.
I reveled in them, knowing that this was the only way I would be able to feel her in a while.
