Alexander’s POV
I turned around to look at Fia as soon as my dad closed the office door.
She looked like she was in pain. She looked exhausted. She looked so scared and confused.
My heart broke and I wished that I could take her pain away. I wished that Hunter never came here. I wished that he wasn’t her mate.
But she wasn’t tired just because of what happened with Hunter. She was tired for days now.
And I knew exactly why.
“I don’t know what to do, Lex,” Fia mumbled as she let her head fall to her chest.
She placed her hands on her head and groaned.
I clenched my fists and tightened my jaw. I wanted her to reject him. I wanted her to stay here where she was safe. What if Hunter’s insane father decided to hurt Fia as an act of revenge against my mom and dad? How the fuck could I let her go to Hunter’s pack knowing that Nathan was there?
Simple. I couldn’t.
But I wasn’t going to tell her what to do. Despite what I had said earlier, I wasn’t going to make decisions for her. I said it out of fear. Now that I had calmed down a little, I could think clearly. She was a smart girl. She would make the right decision.
I had trouble calming myself down. From my point of view, my twin was in danger and I was scared shitless. I could feel panic increasing inside my body. I could tell that I was on alert. My heart rate increased when she recognized him as her mate and it hadn’t slowed down since. I was tense and I was on edge. I kept thinking about her well-being and it was hard for me to focus on anything else. I felt helpless and powerless. I felt vulnerable.
It didn’t feel like that just because of Hunter. I felt like that because I could tell that she was having trouble with her magic. This situation with Hunter could only make it worse and that made my stomach twist painfully.
I watched as Fia walked to the couch and sat down. She sighed and looked up at me.
“I can’t tell you what to do, Fia,” I mumbled as I crossed my arms over my chest. “A part of me wants to. A part of me wants to make this decision for you, but I know I can’t.”
“I know,” Fia sighed.
“What do you want to do?” I asked her softly.
She looked up at me and shook her head. “I don’t know, Lex.”
I sighed and approached her. I sat down beside her and rubbed her back gently.
“You must have some ideas,” I said, studying her face.
Her eyebrows furrowed and she looked down at her hands.
“I want him, Lex,” she mumbled. “But I am also scared. What if his father doesn’t accept me? What if he is still angry at our family?”
I’d noticed that she wasn’t afraid of him not accepting her or of our family being angry at her. It made me happy. She knew that we would always be there for her, no matter what.
“And my magic…,” Fia added quietly, making me tense up.
“What about it, Fia?” I asked, making her look at me.
“I don’t want to hurt him,” she mumbled. “I don’t want to hurt anyone.”
My heart clenched painfully. I pulled her into a hug.
“You are not going to hurt anyone, Fia,” I said softly. “We will find a way to deal with it. We always did.”
And then a thought occurred to me.
I let her go and grabbed her shoulders.
“Give it to me,” I said.
We never tried it before, but I was sure that it would work. It had to work. Why hadn’t we ever thought of that?
Her eyebrows furrowed. “What?”
“The darkness,” I explained. “Give it to me, Fia. At least a part of it. It will be easier to deal with it if we share it.”
If she could give me her magic and make me stronger, she could surely give me her darkness as well.
Her eyes widened and she gasped quietly.
“Lex, no,” she said. “I am okay. I can deal with it.”
“Fia, I can handle it,” I said sternly. “Give it to me. I will be fine.”
She clenched her fists and shook her head.
“No, Lex,” she said. “I am not putting you in danger. I am not doing it. I can handle it. Everything will be okay.”
“Fia…,” I spoke, but she interrupted me.
“No, Alexander,” she said sternly. “Stop asking. We’ve never done it before. I don’t even know how to do it. I don’t even know if I could do it.”
“It would be the same as when you share your light magic with me,” I said. “Only it wouldn’t make me stronger, it would make me weaker.”
It made sense. It had to work.
Fia narrowed her eyes at me and crossed her arms over her chest.
“If I told you to do something that would weaken me, would you do it?” she asked, making my eyes widen a little.
Of course I wouldn’t. I would never do anything that could potentially harm her. But this was different. It wouldn’t harm me and I would make it easier on her.
“That’s not the same”, I argued. “I won’t get hurt.”
“Yes, it is, and we don’t know that,” she sighed. “I am not doing it, Lex.”
I wanted to argue again, but she interrupted me before I even got to speak.
“Don’t even try, Lex,” she sighed again. “I will talk to mom and Anna about it. I am not putting you in danger.”
I took a deep breath and released it slowly. She took my hand in hers and leaned her head on my shoulders.
“What should I do, Lex?” she mumbled.
I ran my fingers through her hair and leaned my head on hers.
“I don’t know, Fia,” I mumbled. “I will be here no matter what you decide to do. I need you to know that I will never let anyone hurt you and I will never let you hurt anyone. I am here for you just like I was from the day we were born.”
She was my twin. She was in every memory I had. I didn’t know how a life without her looked. I couldn’t even imagine it. We shared everything in our lives. She was there for me through everything in my life. We started walking together. We started talking together. We were there for each other through everything and I would never allow anything or anyone to change that.
