Villains was an unpretentious tavern with live music about five blocks from our apartment in the Arts District of Downtown LA, where Helen and I had been living together for the last eight years. I’d heard of other people’s friendships imploding after they became roommates with their BFFs, but Helen and I were always joined at the hip. We’d known each other since we were little kids growing up in the same suburban cul-de-sac, and we’d been together through twelve years of grade school and four years of college at UCLA. If we had any problem, it was that we were maybe too comfortable with the idea of becoming spinsters together.
Helen loved Villains because, deep down, I was pretty sure her Plan B was to become some rock god’s muse. Whenever we’d go to a concert, she’d stand in front of the crowd near the stage and sway back and forth in an attempt to get the attention of the lead singer. It wasn’t subtle. I’d usually sit at the bar and watch the spectacle from afar.
When it came to dating, I always waited to be approached. I’d had boyfriends, but nothing had lasted longer than a year. I had a way of turning every date into a yearlong relationship instead of getting out early, when I knew it wouldn’t last. I just couldn’t get into the one-night-stand scene. But Helen had no rules about anything. I envied her for that.
After our shift ended, we went back to our apartment and peeled off a layer of tortilla soup, got ready, then headed to Villains around ten. I was wearing my party uniform—black blouse and jeans—and Helen was in a red, high-waisted, A-line skirt and sleeveless white blouse with platform heels. She always looked way hipper than me.
Once inside the bar, she shouted, “Damn it!” I followed her gaze to the stage where an all-girl band was setting up.
“Bummer,” I said.
“Let’s leave, Charlie. This is lame.”
“No, I like it here. It’s so close to our apartment. Don’t make me go back out there.”
The lead singer approached the mic and tapped on it. “Check, check.” When she tore off a crazy guitar riff, Helen’s face lit up. “Okay, fine. We can stay for a while, but we’re getting shots!”
Remember how I said Helen had no rules? She liked attention, and it didn’t matter who it came from. We sat at the bar and took shot after shot, forgetting all about tortilla soup, Luc, and the messiness of our lives. An hour into the set, Helen left me to approach the stage. She stood near the front and tried desperately to get the lead singer’s attention, but the woman wasn’t having it. Maybe she was straight? After more shots and watching Helen’s pathetic attempts to catch the singer’s eye, I found myself sitting in a booth, comforting a rejected—and very drunk—Helen.
“Why doesn’t anyone want me?” she slurred. “Not even that gay chick with the guitar.”
“Well, no one hit on me either.”
“No one ever hits on you, Charlie! You’re standoffish!”
“What? No I’m not,” I whined.
“Your eyes scream, ‘Stay away, I hate one-night stands.’ ”
“Everyone hates one-night stands. They’re awkward as hell.”
“You’re just a prude.”
“Ugh. Let’s go home, I’m over tonight, and I don’t want you throwing up in this bar.” Between Helen, my brother, my mom, and Helen’s mom, I got enough crap about the state of my love life.
“No, I wanna dance.” Helen slid out of the booth and fell directly on her ass with a thump. I pulled her up by the armpits, wrapped my arm around her waist, and started dragging her toward the door. We were making a scene, but Helen was finally getting her wish: the lead singer was staring at her, along with everyone else in the bar.
“I got it, I got it,” she said.
“I don’t think so, babe. You can’t even walk.” I propped open the door to the bar with my foot and led her out onto the street.
“I think I got roofied,” she slurred as her head lolled against my shoulder.
“I think it’s the ten shots you took, not to mention the vodka from earlier.”
We turned a corner and I looked up just in time to see a guy standing directly in front of us with his head down, staring at something written on his palm. “ ’Scuse us,” I muttered, trying to navigate around him, but he was standing in the middle of the sidewalk, holding a bag full of what looked like Chinese takeout.
“Yum, is that Chinese food?” Helen asked.
The guy looked up at her strangely and then looked down at the bag in his hand. He was wearing shorts, flip-flops, and a black hoodie, which shadowed his eyes. Not the most fashion-conscious outfit. “Oh this? Yeah, it is. Are you hungry?”
I started pulling Helen forward. “Come on,” I whispered. “You can’t eat some random guy’s Chinese food on the street.”
She stumbled but caught herself before falling over.
The man walked to her other side. “Let me help you,” he said.
“No, no, we’re fine,” I protested, but Helen had already slung her arm around his shoulder. She reached up and pulled his hood back, and he turned toward her, nonplussed, his striking brown eyes wide with curiosity. He was undeniably good-looking, and would be in anyone’s book. “I’m Adam,” he said. “Let me help you.”
“Nice to meet you, Adam. I’m Trixie and that’s Dottie. I think we got this.” I said.
Adam grinned. Two deep dimples punctuated his cheeks. “Trixie and Dottie, for real?”
“Yep,” I said curtly.
Helen rolled her eyes. “That’s Charlotte and I’m Helen.”
I elbowed her in the ribs. She leaned in and whispered, “He has Chinese food and he’s cute.” She said the last part a little too loud, which made Adam smile.
“Adam, do you live around here?” I asked.
“Yeah, I live on Molina.”
“Why were you headed in the opposite direction then?”
He looked straight ahead so I couldn’t see his face. “I must’ve gotten flipped around.”
I looked at him curiously. Maybe he’s new to the neighborhood? That would explain why I haven’t seen him around.
“You wanna eat at our apartment?” Helen slurred.
“That’s okay,” Adam said. “I’ll just walk you to your place.”
“It’s right up here.” I pointed to the steps leading to the front door of our building. “This is good here; I’ll get her up the rest of the way.”
He stopped, looked at the side of our building, and crooked his head. “Ahhh, man, I love that mural. It’s like wolves dancing in a bed of flowers.”
I followed his gaze to the large, abstract mural that took up the whole side of our building in a riot of grays, pinks, oranges, and blues.
“We always thought those streaks were blood,” Helen said, making sweeping motions with her hand.
“That’s a pretty gruesome interpretation. Those are pink and red flowers, obviously,” he countered. “Their beauty is meant to emphasize the equally wild beauty of the wolves.”
I tipped my head and squinted. “Now that you mention it, they do look like flowers. But why are the wolves angry if they’re dancing in a field of flowers?”
“Maybe they’re allergic,” Helen offered.
“Who says they’re angry?” Adam replied. “The flowers are rising up from the ground to embrace them. To me, they look happy.”
I stared at him as he stared at the mural, completely transfixed. Silence washed over us as we stood in the street, two best friends and a stranger sharing an oddly sincere moment together.
“Well, it was nice meeting you, Adam,” I said, gently breaking our collective daze. “Thanks for your help.”
“No problem. It was nice to meet you, ladies.” He nodded at us, gave a little wave, and headed up the street. But as we turned and made our way up the stairs, we heard Adam call out, “Oh, I almost forgot!” He jogged back toward us, pulling a take-out container from his plastic bag. “Here, I told you I’d share.” He held the little carton out to me and looked into my eyes with total sincerity. He pushed his thick, wavy brown hair back with his other hand, and I felt something pull within me.
“That’s okay.”
“No, we’ll take it!” Helen swatted at the box, ripping it from Adam’s grasp.
He chuckled at her and then turned his attention back to me. I couldn’t pull my gaze from his, from that face full of kindness, those eyes that turned down slightly at the corners, giving him a slightly sad air. I should’ve felt uncomfortable, but I didn’t.
You know when you’re looking at someone and you can’t help but smile at how oblivious they are to their own charm? That’s what was happening to me, and it was making me feel . . . happy. Euphoric. Something indescribable. It was like we already knew each other, like we had met in a previous life. Memories that didn’t exist began exploding in my mind like fireworks.
I smiled at him; he smiled back. There was some sort of affinity between us, but I didn’t know where it was coming from, exactly. I didn’t know this guy half an hour ago, but now I needed to know him.
He glanced past me at the mural, and then he searched my eyes, squinting. “Have we met before?” he asked. Is he feeling it, too?
“No, I don’t think so.”
“But you seem so familiar to me.”
“I know, right?” I said with conviction.
He reached out for a handshake, the whole time never taking his eyes off mine. “Maybe we both have familiar faces.”
“Like, average faces?” I asked.
“Yours is anything but average.” I felt that same pull again. I let him shake my hand for an unusually long time while he continued studying me. He turned it over, palm up, and ran his index finger across it. “Long life line,” he said.
“Thanks. I think.” If he wasn’t so adorable and if I wasn’t feeling the magnetism so fiercely, I’m sure my subconscious would have been screaming, Is this guy a serial killer?
Helen yawned audibly and I realized Adam and I were just standing there, staring at each other in a trance.
“Bye, Adam,” I whispered.
His kind eyes crinkled. “Bye, Charlotte.”
I swallowed and pulled my hand out of his. After he turned to head down the street, Helen said, “What on earth was that?”
“What do you mean?” I was still blinking out of my trancelike state.
“He could have impregnated you with that look.”
I jogged up the stairs to our apartment. “Yeah, he was kinda . . .”
“Hot!” Helen blurted.
I was going to say strange, even though I liked that about him.
She went on. “Did you see the way he looked at the mural?”
“Yeah, I thought it was sweet.”
Helen stood near the door, waiting for me to unlock it. “You should have asked him out. I would have been all over that guy if he looked at me like that.”
“Too late, I guess.”
Once inside, Helen hopped up on the countertop, which sat in front of the sliding glass door that led to a small balcony overlooking the front of our building. She tore open the Chinese takeout box and began eating directly from it with the chopsticks Adam had given her.
“I can’t believe you’re eating that,” I said from the couch.
“It’s delicious!” she mumbled through a mouthful of noodles.
I rested my head against the back of the couch, closed my eyes, and yawned. “I think I’m gonna go to bed.”
“Oh my god!”
“What?” I turned around quickly.
“Look, look, there he is!” Helen was pointing toward the sliding glass door.
I popped up, slid the door open, and ran out onto the balcony. From our second-story apartment you could see all the way down to the corner, to where Adam was standing stock-still, gazing up at the street sign.
“What’s he doing?” Helen asked, joining me on the balcony.
“I think he’s lost.”
“Should we help him?”
“Adam?” I called out. He turned around and began shuffling toward our building.
“Now you can get his number,” Helen said under her breath.
“Look at him, he has no idea where he is,” I said.
“Maybe this is some weird act.”
“Adam? Are you okay?” I shouted
“Yeah. I haven’t lived here that long and I forgot my phone.” He was looking up at us from the street.
Helen leaned into me. “Help him. Let him use your phone.”
“I’ll come down and help you,” I said.
As I was walking toward the door, Helen followed me out. “Tell him he can use your phone in exchange for a kiss.”
“Not if you’re going to be watching us from the window, weirdo.”
I don’t know what changed inside of me; maybe it was his sweet smile as he stared up at me like a lost puppy while clutching his Chinese food, or maybe I was tired of always being the one to sit back and watch.
His eyes were wide when I met him on the stairs in front of the building. I held my phone out. “You want to punch your address into the GPS?”
Taking it from my hands he said, “Yeah, thanks so much.”
“Sure.” He handed me the Chinese food to hold as he read an address off his palm and plugged it into the maps app on my phone.
“So you’re brand-new to the area?” I asked.
“Uh huh, yeah . . . sorta. Okay, left, left, right three blocks, left, then right. Left, left, right three, then left, right.” He was studying the screen.
“You live right by Bar Kenner, in those brick lofts?”
He gave me a thumbs-up. “You got it.”
I raised an eyebrow. Those were very expensive lofts. “That’s pretty close,” I said.
“You go there? Bar Kenner?” he asked.
“Yeah, Helen and I go there after work sometimes.”
He smiled when he noticed I was staring at his mouth. “You want to go there and get a drink?”
Oh my god, he’s asking me out. Be cool. “Sure. When?”
“Right now?” He shrugged, revealing his dimples again. “Life’s short.”
I took my phone back and looked at the time. It was eleven thirty. “It’s kinda late.”
Coward! I shouted inwardly.
“Go ahead! Go!” came a voice from above. No, it wasn’t God; it was Helen, standing on the balcony—eavesdropping, of course.
“I’ll sweeten the deal and let you have some of my cold kung pao chicken.”
“That’s very enticing,” I said.
“I mean, I understand if you can’t,” he said, picking up on my hesitation. “It’s late. Rain check?”
“Go with him!” Helen shouted.
“Sure. Do you want my number?”
He looked around and shoved his hands into his pockets like he was searching for a pen but coming up short. That’s when I made the decision.
“Screw it. Let’s get a drink now. Wait here, I need to grab a sweater.”
“I’ll be here,” he said.
I ran back to the apartment, a huge smile on my face.
