Insane love.
Sapphire’s POV
Insane.
That’s what I hear people calling me behind my back.
But when was I not insane.
Then when I came to know I was thrown away by my parent’s into a bin.
Then when I didn’t speak a word for a week when children at the orphanage bullied me.
Then when I slept for days under a tree or anything that covered my head and the passer-by’s just stared.
Or then when Andro left me after showing me what you mean by the word love.
Yes I was insane
And I am happy about it.
You know why?
Because that’s what made me survive.
That’s what made me realise that after everything I suffered I was still human.
A human with lost mind.
But she is alive.
Breathing each second…
Seeing the only person I cared for caring for me in return.
Giving me everything he couldn’t.
Trying his best in every way he could.
But he was too late.
I was gone now.
My sanity was lost and so were my emotions.
I was chaos.
Both inside and out.
One minute I feel serene
The other I feel like breaking everything in the room.
One minute I adore his features with love and the other minute I feel like killing the girls who even dare to touch him.
One minute I feel I am normal.
And the other those voices comeback.
Haunting me every minute of day and night.
One minute I am normal.
Another minute I am a psycho who doesn’t even know what she is doing.
Right now I am staring at Andro’s perfectly cut face.
He is asleep on the sofa facing me.
He looks tired.
Tired of looking after me every second.
But he doesn’t give up.
‘He doesn’t deserve you..!’
The voice said and I sighed..
I was expecting it..it doesn’t leave me alone for a minute I swear.
‘I know ‘
I said defeated and closed my eyes trying to get some sleep.
‘Why don’t you let him go? Why are you being selfish and making him suffer…just kill yourself and set him free you slut!!’
My anxiety attack was coming listening to the voice..
I tried placing my hands on my ears and taking long breaths
Breathe Saph Breathe!!
It’s fine calm yourself.
I tried explaining myself but it was in vain…
‘What happened Saph can’t listen what’s true!! I am telling you …end this…end yourself and only then will I go….’
No…No…
I moved my body back and forth trying to get rid of the voice.
But as I moved my leg back I couldn’t move..
I tried again but it felt like something was stopping me.
I looked down to see but there was nothing…
I couldn’t help…
I screamed…
Screamed to set me free.
Screamed to end this nightmare.
Suddenly I felt something soft on my head.
I looked up to see Andro kissing my forehead while holding my face in his hands.
He pulled my hair out of my face and continued to kiss me everywhere.
‘It’s fine…I am here…it’s fine.’
He kept repeating as first he kissed my closed eyes taking away my tears.
Moving towards my nose …them my cheeks and finally when he reached my lips he stopped.
I opened my eyes to see why he stopped.
But as soon as my eyes met his ..his lips next to my ears sending a shiver down my body.
‘I want these innocent eyes to stare at me when I claim these lips.’
He said placing his thumb on my lip and tracing it.
Gone was the voice.
Gone was the fear.
Instead a heat pooled between my legs and it burned down all my insecurities.
I stared at him unable to respond.
But I guess he expected this when he guided me all along.
He kissed me.
And I didn’t respond.
Not because I didn’t wanted to..
No but because a question entered my mind that froze my senses.
‘Did I deserve him? Did he deserve a psycho orphan insane bipolar girl as his partner for life?
Did he deserved to suffer all his life just because he loved a psycho girl….
No he is wrong…
His choices are wrong….
I need to stop this…
I don’t need him to die with me.
I want him to be happy.
He can’t be happy if he keeps wasting his time on a gone case like me…
I stopped him by placing my hands on his chest and pushing him back
But he out rightly refused.
Instead his strong hands gripped my tiny fists and pushed them back leaving me completely at his mercy.
He refused to break the kiss as I refused to accept it.
‘S…t…o..p…’
I managed to say in between the kiss with tears running down my cheeks.
Yes I was crying again
Not because I didn’t wanted it.
I wanted it like a dying man needs water but I couldn’t afford it.
The cost associated with his downfall outweighs my personal selfish enjoyment.
‘Sshhh just relax….listen to me….just look into my eyes…’
As I looked up and stared into his understanding and calm eyes , my heart relaxed.
‘Good girl…now I will let you go but you will not move…stay put…okay?’
I nodded and his grip loosened on my arms .
I was laying still on the bed with my hands on my sides as he stood on the side of the bed staring at me.
‘Here take these.’
He placed my medicine on my palm as I sat back up and I gulped it with a glass of water.
He sat next to me and started playing with my fringe rolling it on his finger.
I don’t know why but this action always calmed me down.
‘Why were you pushing me away Saph…you never did it before..’
His eyes looked hurt and I decided to look at my lap instead of his eyes.
‘I….I….just thought….’
Should I tell him. I am so damn confused right now.
‘No…it was nothing….I just didn’t feel….like kissing…I was ….I was not ready….a…nd….you suddenly… kissed…so….’
I lied trying not to look into his eyes.
‘You didn’t feel like? Huh?’
He suddenly laughed and not a normal laugh.
There was something cynical in it.
Like my words not only hurted him but also broke him.
Before I know he gripped my neck with his rough hands and roughly placed my lips on his.
The kiss was so dominating and demanding that I couldn’t help but respond.
My body betrayed me and that was when I realised.
He owns me completely.
My mind may refuse but my body blindly obliges to his every whim and command It trembles under his every touch.
I can fool my mind not to respond but I can’t control this body.
The kiss ended and I gulped in air exhausted by his sudden attack.
I was shocked.
He was always so loving and understanding.
What happened today?
It’s not that I didn’t liked it
Of course I did but his behaviour is strange.
He just smirked.
‘Don’t take my kindness for granted dear….if a Prince’s love can’t get back you back… don’t force the beast to bring you back….because if he comes mind my words Saph I won’t be this gentle and your treatment won’t be this slow….if I have to be a beast to bring you out of other beasts then mind it…I will be the most dangerous of all.’
I gulped seeing the determination in his eyes.
And for once I was scared of him.
Scared of what he will do if his patience with me runs out.
‘W..hat do you mean…?’
He smiled placing my flick behind my ear.
‘You showed me your insanity…now I will show you mine’
With this he was gone leaving me confused and afraid.
Yes I was afraid of him.
Afraid of this unknown side of him.
I laid on the bed lost in his thoughts.
But to my surprise his thoughts kept me so occupied that those voices didn’t return.
Instead his voice kept ringing in my head again and again.
‘I will show you mine….’
Alessandro’s POV
They say if you have a problem then take another problem that is bigger than the 1 st one…..soon the 1 st problem will no longer look like a problem and you won’t even realise when you solved it.
My Saph was not a problem.
She was a challenge.
Curing her was a challenge.
And I will cure her even if I have to do what no one ever did before.
They say steel cuts steel.
Let’s test it then….
I will make her reality a nightmare.
A nightmare that will kill all her other nightmares.
I know it’s very risky
But what do I have to loose.
The next morning when she woke up she found her hands and legs immobile.
Afraid she looked around to see her hands tied to the bed post and her legs tied together.
Her eyes landed on the figure sitting on the seat staring at her and she calmed down.
‘Andro…..thank god….you are here….I thought….’
‘You thought wrong princess…this is reality not a nightmare…you told me you have nightmares where your hands and legs are tied in chains…well shit just became real….’
‘Stop joking Andro….just open these chains…’
When she saw him sit down on the chair and ignore her.
She started struggling to get out.
’12 hours….your time starts.
…..now….’
‘What the hell are you doing Andro!! I said open them!!!I will kill you I swear!! ‘
He placed a kiss on my forehead and whispered in my ear making my entire body shiver..
‘I will be here…staring at you every second as you fight with your fears…. don’t worry you will be fine’
‘No….No don’t….they will come back…the voices….they will …..Andro please….’
She had tears in her eyes as she pleaded him.
For a second his eyes softened.
He wanted to end this madness before he even started it.
But he knew that this was his only chance.
Only chance to bring back what once was his.
He turned his back on her and seated himself in the corner getting busy with his work on his phone.
It will kill him seeing her like this.
But he has to do it.
After all what doesn’t kills you makes you stronger.
And he knew she will be the strongest.
