The entire ACOTAR series is on our sister website: novelsforall.com

We will not fulfill any book request that does not come through the book request page or does not follow the rules of requesting books. NO EXCEPTIONS.

Comments are manually approved by us. Thus, if you don't see your comment immediately after leaving a comment, understand that it is held for moderation. There is no need to submit another comment. Even that will be put in the moderation queue.

Please avoid leaving disrespectful comments towards other users/readers. Those who use such cheap and derogatory language will have their comments deleted. Repeat offenders will be blocked from accessing this website (and its sister site). This instruction specifically applies to those who think they are too smart. Behave or be set aside!

Clandestine Passion: Part 4 – Chapter 36


James had to acquire another horse, and it was close to midnight when he got to Dover. He went to one of the public houses with rooms that abutted the harbor and found that the next ferry crossing would be in the morning.

“Is there a Mrs. Lovelock staying here or a Miss Cooke or Cooksey? Small, fair-haired woman, traveling alone?”

“No, not here. And it’s a good thing, too. This is a rather rough sort of public house. No place for a woman traveling alone. She should be in one of the high-toned places farther from the harbor.”

“Which are those?”

“Well, there are close to a dozen of them. And those people there won’t tell you if she is there or not. If you can even rouse them this late at night. Is she going to make the crossing? I recommend you be out on the harbor at dawn. You’ll see her there. Now, do you want a room or not?”

James took the room even though he did not sleep, but paced up and down, too anxious and too afraid of missing the dawn. Of missing Catherine. Finally, he saw a lightening of the sky in the east and he left the public house and went to wait at the harbor. It was cold there with the sky still dark and a brisk offshore wind toward the Channel. But the sea was not rough and James thought it likely the Bonny Bess would leave in a timely fashion.

With each woman who approached the harbor, James’ heart leapt into his throat. But they were all too tall, too stout, too old, too young.

The sun was up, and the boat would be leaving within the hour. There were more and more people coming to the harbor and James had to stand directly next to the wharf that berthed the Bonny Bess to make sure he would not miss Catherine.

Unless, of course, she had arrived at Dover in time yesterday to take the last crossing of the day. That was unlikely. Or she had hired a private packet boat to take her across. That was more likely. Catherine could afford it. James stayed by the wharf but tried to see if a woman of Catherine’s size was heading toward any of the other boats.

And then he saw her, a small figure. Her golden curls covered by a lace cap, her red tartan cloak on, directing two men carrying her trunks. She was headed directly toward him but hadn’t seen him yet.

A man bumped into him. A limping, well-dressed man with a tall woman with gray-streaked hair. He recognized the man and grabbed his arm.

“Dubois!”

Dubois tried to wrench his arm away but then looked at James’ face. “Your Grace,” he said and smiled. “Are you making the crossing, too?”

Catherine and her luggage were getting closer.

“Might I ask what the marquis is doing here?”

“I am going home, Your Grace. To France. There is something that I must attend to personally.”

“Is it possible that you have something in your possession that belongs to the British government?”

“I am at a loss, I don’t know of what you speak. But I must insist you let me go, so that I can make this crossing. As your Chaucer wrote, time and tide, et cetera.”

But James did not let go.

“Two men are dead, Dubois. Siddons and Ffoulkes. Do you have the plans stolen from the Navy Board? Did you find them in my dressing room?”

“You are mad, Your Grace. I know nothing of this. Release me.”

Catherine was upon them then with her stevedores, trying to get past and onto the wharf proper to board the ship.

James turned toward her. “Catherine.”

“Jamie . . .” Catherine’s voice trailed off and she had no smile for him. To James, she looked very tired.

The tall woman with the gray streaks in her hair pulled at James’ arm to get him to release Dubois, but James held fast.

Catherine had a look of recognition on her face. “Madame Beauchamp?”

Madame Beauchamp gave up tugging on James and instead grabbed Catherine and pinned her arms behind her and started dragging her down the wharf toward the boat. The two trunk-bearing stevedores blinked and put the trunks down.

“Release René, sir!” Madame Beauchamp shouted as Catherine struggled against the much larger woman.

“Your Grace, I am not your enemy,” Dubois hissed. “Unhand me and la Veuve Lovelock will be safe. I have read your letters. I know you love her.”

James let go of him then.

Of course, he did.

What had he been thinking? There were no possessions of the British state that matched the importance of Catherine and Catherine’s safety. And the baby.

Dubois hastened down the wharf, limping as fast as he could. When he reached Madame Beauchamp, she let go of Catherine.

Catherine had been pulling against Madame Beauchamp’s grasp. When the woman released her, Catherine lunged forward, teetered on the edge of the wharf, and as James watched in horror, she fell into the water.

She was immediately lost to view, pulled down with a great force as if Scylla herself had snatched Catherine from the surface.

James dived in.

The water was cold and murky. James couldn’t see well. He should have taken his boots off first. But he kicked as hard as he could and swam toward what he thought was the spot where Catherine had sunk. The harbor was deep. He swam down and touched bottom and couldn’t see her. Surely, he should be able to see her in her red-tartan cloak.

His lungs burning, he surfaced and gasped and saw that he was a good fifteen feet beyond where she had fallen in. He swam back and dived down again.

And there she was, on the bottom, struggling to undo her cloak, a look of panic on her face. James caught her around the waist and kicked. Up, up, up. He issued a prayer of thanks to his brother William who had insisted that he learn to swim and dive in the lakes and ponds of the Duchy of Middlewich.

Catherine was limp now. And she was exceedingly heavy, far heavier than she should be.

He surfaced with her and there were arms reaching down from the wharf. With his last bit of strength, he shoved Catherine’s body up and into those arms. Only once he saw that she had been laid down safely on the wharf did he accept a hand up out of the water himself.

An old salt was leaning over Catherine and listening to her chest. Catherine started coughing, and the sailor turned her on her side and she vomited.

James got on his knees next to her and took over holding her from the old salt.

“I hope Mrs. Lovelock is all right.”

James looked up. It was Mr. Bulverton. He squatted down next to Catherine and James.

“Be sure to give her some good thumps on the back so she gets all that sea water up. She’ll be right as a trivet in a minute.”

The old salt was hovering nearby and handed James a knife. He cut the cords of Catherine’s cloak and it fell to the wharf with a thud and a clank.

“Ah, she sewed guinea coins into the lining of the cloak,” Mr. Bulverton said. “No wonder she sank straight to the bottom.”

James thumped Catherine vigorously on her back several times. After the fifth thump, Catherine said, “Stop, Jamie,” and turned and put her arms around his neck and buried her face in his chest.

“Upsidaisy,” he whispered into her wet hair.

James got his arms under her and stood, as did Mr. Bulverton, and they walked back down the wharf away from the boat. James peripherally noticed the Marquis Dubois and Madame Beauchamp being moved away from the shoreline by Mr. Bulverton’s men.

“A rider came after you left Ffoulkes Manor. He brought word that the plans were not in your dressing room but someone had clearly conducted a search in the rooms recently. Dubois left London for Dover yesterday. And suddenly someone high up became very anxious about the, uh, papers under discussion. We were dispatched to bring Dubois back to London for questions.”

James spoke to the stevedores who were still standing next to Catherine’s trunks at the end of the wharf, “Go get that cloak on the wharf and then bring those trunks along with me to that public house over there.”

Catherine looked up at James and James looked down at her.

“I’m thinking,” Mr. Bulverton said, “that the plans will be inside his wooden leg, mark my words.”

James was still looking at Catherine. “Good luck, Mr. Bulverton.” James strode off, the stevedores following.

“Goodbye, Your Grace,” Mr. Bulverton called after him.

He gripped her tightly. There was so much to say. “You’re very wet, Mrs. Lovelock.”

Her teeth chattered. “As are you, Your Grace.”

“You know,” he said, “this reminds me of a certain walk we once took together across the Kentish countryside.”

“Yes, being carried by a handsome duke sounds very romantic until you realize that you have to be injured and soaking wet and cold every time it happens.”

“I will endeavor to make sure, Kate,” he said and kissed her forehead, “that the next time I carry you, you will be dry and warm and unhurt.”

He took her to his room in the public house, which was rather grim indeed in the light of day. But there was a bed. There was a fireplace. The stevedores brought the soaked cloak and the trunks to the room and they must have told the innkeeper that the very wet man with the very wet woman had been called “Your Grace” by another man at the harbor, because the publican immediately appeared at the door of the room.

“Does Your Grace need anything else?”

Coal and tea and towels.

But first, some privacy. After the door closed, James deposited Catherine in a wooden chair by the fire and peeled off her dress, unlaced her stays, removed her chemise and petticoat and hose. Her cap and her slippers were gone. She wasn’t shivering anymore. Her skin was pale but not blue with cold.

He saw the roundness of her lower abdomen and wanted to place a hand there and say “mine,” but he restrained himself.

She pointed at one of the trunks and he opened it.

“I don’t trust what the towels will be like at a place like this. Give me my nightdress, there on top,” she said. She took it from him and dried herself all over with it. “Now my dressing gown.” She put it on.

“Now you, Jamie,” she said. He undressed and also took her damp nightdress and dried himself all over.

“The salt water has made pretty much everything except my boots unsalvageable, but Enfield will have packed something, I should think.” He opened his saddle bag and put on the dry shirt and the trousers he found there.

Catherine was spreading the soaked nightdress over the chair.

“This is a truly terrible room,” she said gazing at the stained walls, the coarse sheets on the bed, the dust in the corners.

“Yes,” said James.

The coal bucket and tea and towels were delivered then. The publican laid and lit the fire as James poured Catherine a cup of tea that had not steeped long enough but was hot.

James pressed a coin into the man’s hand and got him out the door.

Catherine looked at James over the top of the crude pottery cup.

James looked at Catherine.

Catherine put the cup down.

And then they were kneeling in the middle of the bed, both having clambered up on it and met each other there. He held her face in his hands and kissed her. Hungry, deep kisses. She responded, kissing him back, grabbing at his shirt with her small hands, pulling him into her. He pushed her dressing gown off her shoulders and she lifted his shirt over his head. He got off the bed and took his trousers off. Now they were just as naked as they had been five minutes before.

“Jamie,” she said, looking at him.

“Kate,” he said and got back on the bed and put his hands on her waist and pulled her down onto the mattress.

He lay next to Catherine on the bed and ran his hands all over her body as he kissed her face over and over again. She tasted salty, like the sea, and he knew he must, too. She moved closer to him and he wanted to cover her with his body, keep her there, under him, safe.

She reached down and took his member in her hand. She stroked it, and James groaned. He put his hand between her legs and touched her wet folds. He grazed her pearl and she shuddered.

“Please, Jamie,” she whispered, and he felt his cock become even harder in her hand. He withdrew his hand from between her legs and positioned himself over her. She did not release him but spread her legs wider still and guided him into her.

And again he was lost in the wonder and the sweetness of being inside her. She put her heels behind his knees and rocked her hips as he thrust into her, and she sneezed and sneezed again as her body shook. “Jamie!”

He would never tire of hearing her say his name. And she sneezed again.

“Kate,” he said and used one hand to brush a wet tendril of hair from her face. And with very little warning, he was lost and releasing himself and the waves of pleasure rolled across his body for a long time.

When it was over, he lay on her. They breathed. His neck was bent and his face was buried in her wet hair. She had her head under his chest, her face turned to the side. He had a flood of emotion, lying on top of her, as he had months ago, when they had first coupled. And this time, even though she shifted slightly under him, he did not get off her. He stayed on top of her and he stayed in that wash of feeling.

How grateful he was that she was under him right now, breathing, living. How frightened he had been with her in the water. How sure he was that if she had stayed in that cold, dark place, he would have felt alone forever.

And he wept silently.

She must have felt him shake or heard the quiver in his breathing because she put her hands to his head and stroked the short hair she found there, over and over again.

Finally, he rolled off her and found he could speak. “Don’t go to France. We must talk. You promised me that. In exchange for the painting. We must talk.”

“Yes,” she said and stared at the cracked ceiling. “But not in this room.”


Comment

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

Options

not work with dark mode
Reset