Madeline’s POV
I was nervous.
Well, no. I was more than nervous. I was a complete wreck and I didn’t know what to do. My mind was still on Janet and the way she reacted when Alpha Dimitri told her that I was his mate. I wondered what she would do. I wondered how would she punish me for this. I wondered how would she chase me away.
The thoughts of her were all-consuming and I barely registered Beta Will.
“Luna,” he said politely, bowing his head down. “Welcome to your packhouse. It is wonderful to finally have you here.”
I gulped and forced myself to focus on Beta Will.
“Thank you, Beta,” I said quietly. “Call me Maddie, please.”
He lifted his head and smiled at me.
“Only if you call me Will,” he said, making me smile a little.
It would be so hard to call him that. I felt like I didn’t belong here. I felt like I wasn’t good enough to be here and call both him and Alpha Dimitri just by their names.
“I will try,” I said and Beta Will winked at me.
Alpha Dimitri pulled me closer to him and kissed the top of my head. I was getting used to having him close. I was getting used to feeling his lips on my body. I started craving it actually. I wanted him to kiss me. I wanted his lips everywhere on my body and that thought scared me.
I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to stay. Janet wouldn’t let me stay.
‘Stop it, Maddie,’ Skye said sternly. ‘If you think about leaving one more time, I will tell Skol. I will tell him about Janet as well. Stop thinking about leaving, because it won’t happen.’
I ignored her and focused back on Alpha Dimitri and Beta Will.
We were now walking and I could hear them talking about something.
“Is it ready?” Alpha Dimitri asked.
“Yes,” Beta Will said, giving him a small nod. “Everything is ready. Do you want me to send Pete to get her things?”
Whose things? Who was Pete?
“No,” Alpha Dimitri said. “I will go. I don’t want another man’s scent on her stuff. It will drive me insane.”
Oh, they were talking about me.
“I can go get my things,” I said, looking up at Alpha Dimitri.
I didn’t want to bother him. I could go back and get the things I needed.
Alpha Dimitri smiled at me and shook his head.
“No, princess,” he said. “I don’t want my mother to see you and say something else that would upset you. I will go. Don’t worry about it.”
“What did your mother say?” Will asked before I could protest.
“I will tell you later,” Alpha Dimitri sighed and I could hear annoyance in his voice.
Beta Will opened the door and Alpha Dimitri pulled me into the biggest office I’d ever seen. My former Alpha’s office was only half the size of this one. A huge desk was in the center of the room. It was completely covered in papers and folders. Another desk was placed on the side, but that one looked brand new and there were no papers or folders in sight. I loved the huge windows and the natural light in the room. I could see the forest behind the packhouse and it made me smile a little.
“Do you like it, princess?” Alpha Dimitri asked.
I looked up at him and nodded. He smiled and bent down to kiss my forehead.
“I am glad,” he said. “This is your desk.”
He pointed at the empty desk in the room and my eyes widened a little. My desk?
Well, that made sense, right? I was a Luna, right?
“I know it is common for a Luna to have her own office, but I want you here with me at all times,” Alpha Dimitri continued. “I can’t imagine spending an entire day without you. I need you by my side at all times and I need to see you at all times.”
I couldn’t say anything. I was just staring at the desk, trying so hard to calm my racing heart down.
It was real. I was a Luna. I was his mate. I would have to lead the pack and I would have to make decisions. That desk would be mine. I would have to sit there, look at papers, and be a Luna.
Oh, Goddess, I wasn’t made to be a Luna! I wasn’t made to be his mate! I couldn’t do that! I couldn’t…
“Maddie?” Alpha Dimitri called my name with a hint of worry in his voice.
I couldn’t answer him. I couldn’t even breathe.
“Princess?” Alpha Dimitri called me as he turned me around and cupped my cheeks. “What is wrong, my love?”
The worry in his eyes was painful to see. I didn’t want him to worry.
“I will give you guys a minute,” Beta Will said quietly.
I watched him leave the room as I tried to force my lungs to let the air in.
“Madeline?” Alpha Dimitri called my name and this time I could clearly hear the panic in his voice.
I looked back at him and I instinctively buried my nose into his chest. His scent soothed me down immediately.
“Maddie, love, please tell me what’s wrong?” Alpha Dimitri cried out as he placed his hand on my head and held me close to him.
I felt his lips on the top of my head and I relaxed even more. I had to tell him something. I couldn’t let him worry.
“Everything is moving so fast,” I mumbled quietly. “I am just a little overwhelmed.”
Alpha Dimitri tightened his hold on me. He placed another kiss on the top of my head and ran his hand down my back.
“I am sorry, princess,” he said softly. “I should have been a bit more considerate. I’ve been in this relationship nine months longer than you have.”
He chuckled and I looked up at him. Goddess, he was beautiful when he smiled.
“I am really sorry, Maddie,” he said as he caressed my cheek. “I’ve gotten a bit ahead of myself. I am just so excited to finally be able to share everything with you.”
I lifted my hand and cupped his cheek. I couldn’t hold back. I had to touch him. I had to assure him that everything was okay. He leaned into my touch and I almost melted into a puddle.
“It’s okay,” I said. “It will just take me some time to figure out that this is real.”
He smiled and placed his hand on top of mine.
“It’s real, my love,” he said softly. “You are my mate. You are the Queen and the Luna of this Kingdom and this pack.”
My heart raced and the fear I felt before crept its way back into my body.
“I will be here every step of the way, Maddie,” Alpha Dimitri continued softly. “You will never be alone. I promise.”
He pulled me into a hug and I let his presence soothe me.
I hoped that he was right. I hoped that everything would really be okay.
