At St. Joe’s, I read Dante’s Inferno. He stated that the seventh circle of hell was reserved for the violent. The inner ring of the circle housed the violent against God, the middle ring housed the suicides, and the outer ring was for the violent against people and property.
That was my ring.
Because I not only wanted to have a little tantrum with a baseball bat and this stupid karaoke machine, but I was going to fuck someone up as well.
After discovering that Tate’s car was out of commission until we could get to an open auto body shop tomorrow, I’d resigned myself to having to stay in South Bend for the night.
And to make matters worse, Tate and Jax seemed to be on a mission to make sure I followed them all out to a bar.
Madoc didn’t want me along. He’d joked that I’d fit in better at one of the community college parties.
So . . . I flipped him off, went upstairs to my room, and shredded the shit out of the back of my DC skating T-shirt and applied a hell of a lot more makeup than I’d wanted.
To hell with him. He didn’t think I’d fit in.
Baby, I always fit in.
My jeans were tight, my T-shirt showed off my back with the twenty or so slits running across it, and my hair and makeup broadcasted that I was damn well looking for a good time.
Tate thought I looked good, too. She had me do the same thing to her T-shirt, and then Jared hauled her upstairs to change. They didn’t come back for half an hour, and Tate was still wearing the same shirt.
“Hey, you go to school here?” a guy shouted in my ear while I waited at the bar. I cringed and looked over at him, doing a double-take.
His espresso-colored hair was a little longer around the ears and fell on his forehead, and his blue eyes popped underneath his dark eyebrows. He was cute. Really cute.
He was dressed pretty casually—dark-wash jeans and some kind of beer T-shirt—but he wasn’t hard on the eyes. And he definitely was dressed better than Madoc, who looked like an Abercrombie ad. This guy wasn’t as built—he was lean, but toned—but he had a wide eye-catching smile.
“No,” I shouted back over the music. “I go to Northwestern. You?”
“Yeah, I’m a senior here. What brings you to Notre Dame?”
“Visiting,” I answered, handing the bartender a few bucks and taking my Coke. “You?”
“Bud,” he ordered to the bartender and then looked at me. “Environmental Engineering.”
Cute, engineer, and orders no-frills beer. Definitely my type. Not that I drank Budweiser or any alcohol very much. I could’ve if I’d wanted to. They weren’t carding at the bar, since IDs were checked at the door and Madoc had worked his magic to get us in, but I still opted to stay sober.
“Very cool.” I fist-bumped him and smiled. “Well, I’m heading back to my friends. Have a good night.”
He nodded, looking like he wanted to say something, but stayed at the bar to wait for his drink.
Heading through the dense cluster of people waiting to place their orders, I made my way back to the two tables we had put together near the wall of windows and sat back down.
I noticed the extra body at our table right away. A girl was sitting next to Madoc, and my eyes narrowed at his hand on her leg.
Her long dark hair hung in big curls down over her breasts, and she had tanned, toned arms that looked great in a loose green tank top that showed off the black lace bra underneath. She was definitely dressed in a slutty-sexy way, yet it was completely expensive and stylish.
Whereas I just probably looked slutty.
She was drinking Amstel Light. Of course.
Madoc glanced at me for a split second but then turned his attention to Jared, who sat at my side. “So how are you liking ROTC?” he asked.
“It’s good,” Jared spoke up. “I have to go to two separate campuses for all of my classes, but it’s keeping me out of trouble.”
Tate, leaning into him on his other side, patted his leg. “Yep. Say it, baby. ‘Tate, your dad was right.’”
Jared jabbed her in the ribs, and she started giggling, pushing him away. “Stop.”
“You know you’re going to be apart? Like a lot.” Madoc’s tone was far from friendly, and his expression was stern. “And his sexy ass is going to be in the jungle or on a ship for six months out of the year away from you. You okay with that?” he spoke to Tate.
What the hell? Why was he raining on their parade? I had never been a fan of Jared’s, but he’d damn well earned my trust over the past couple of months. He and Tate were doing great.
Tate sobered, evening out her smile. “Of course.” She nodded. “I’ll miss him, but I trust him.” And then she smirked at Jared. “You won’t touch any of those guys, will you?”
“Not unless he gets really horny,” Jax joked.
“I’ll get you a vibrator, Tate,” Madoc offered. “Or I could just come over. You know, to check on you when he’s away.”
A splinter of jealousy dug into my heart, but then I saw Jared flip him off out of the corner of my eye. I guess it was pretty regular practice for Madoc to joke like that.
“Yeah, thanks,” Tate mumbled. “I’ll take the vibrator, I think.”
I set my drink down and looked behind me to the side at the newest idiot entertaining the crowd with bad disco karaoke.
Oh, wait. All disco was bad. Why was it that everyone who sings either goes for disco or country?
I should get up there and . . . nope. Never mind. I blinked away that idiot thought and turned back to the table.
And found Madoc staring at me. He still had his hand on the girl’s leg, but he’d stopped rubbing. I couldn’t tell if he was drunk or not. Usually he didn’t sport such serious expressions, but he hadn’t been up to the bar more than once.
The girl to his right had been chatting with Jax, but I wasn’t even sure if Madoc had introduced her. I hadn’t gotten a name, but that must have been the girl he was talking about spending his nights with.
Within seconds, though, she turned back to Madoc and whispered something in his ear.
I slouched a little lower in my seat, avoiding his eyes.
“Hey, Madoc. How’s it going?” A chair appeared at my other side, and I looked up to see the guy from the bar sitting down next to me.
He gave a half-smile, holding eye contact for a little longer than me.
Madoc’s voice was slow and deep. “Aidan,” he greeted. Only it didn’t sound like a greeting. More like a threat.
“Tell me everything you can about this pretty girl.” Aidan spoke to Madoc but motioned to me.
Really?
I rolled my eyes and straightened up. “Madoc doesn’t know me. Not really.” I offered my hand to Aidan.
“Aidan, Fallon. Fallon, Aidan.” Madoc introduced us, ignoring my insult.
He shook my hand, and I smiled back, still not interested but not wanting Madoc to see that, either.
“Glad to officially meet you,” Aidan said, his blue eyes piercing.
“Her mother likes young guys,” Madoc chimed in again. “And her father kills people for a living.”
I closed my eyes and exhaled a hot breath through my nose.
What a dick.
My lips twisted up at Madoc’s exaggerated information.
Okay, not really exaggerated. My mother liked young guys, but my father didn’t set out to kill anyone. If you crossed him, you knew what to expect.
But still . . .
Aidan breathed out a laugh. “Nice.”
He obviously thought Madoc was joking.
“Fallon’s also pretty easy,” Madoc said in a husky voice. I glared at him, fire burning my eyes, while Aidan cleared his throat.
I’m going to kill him!
“Easy on the eyes, that is,” he specified.
I stood up, grabbing one of the unemptied shot glasses on the table. “Oh, Madoc. You didn’t tell him the best part. I can sing.”
And I downed the shot, not realizing it was tequila until it hit my throat. Slamming the glass down on the table, I spun around and dived into the dance crowd, waiting until I was out of sight before I coughed out the burn from the noxious shit I just drank.
“You wanna sing?” the burly rocker dude who ran the karaoke show asked as I stepped up to the side of the stage.
“Yeah. Do you have Ashlee Simpson’s ‘La La’?” I swallowed the taste of the liquor over and over again but couldn’t get rid of it on my tongue. One nice thing though was that I already felt it coursing through my limbs and giving me delicious chills all over my body.
“Sure.” The guy nodded without looking at me as he worked the machine. “Step on up.”
Doing as he said, I lifted my chin, took the mic with one hand, and stuck the other in the back pocket of my jeans. Whistles erupted around the room, and I turned to the table where my friends and enemy sat, seeing Jared and Tate turned around in their seats, smiling. Jax watched me, too, even though he had a waitress desperately trying to get his attention by bending down at his side to talk to him. I could see her cleavage from here.
Aidan had stayed at the table but stood up for a better view, and Madoc . . . well, Madoc was the red-hot blood in my veins. His fucking mouth was plastered on the girl next to him, eyes closed, and I may as well not even have existed.
I ground my teeth together and tensed the muscles in my legs, staying pissed. I saw Tate look between Madoc and me and then stand up as the music started.
“Here you go!” rocker dude shouted.
I bounced the heel of my right foot up and down, finding rhythm with the fast-paced pop tune. Closing my eyes, I smiled, relishing in the thrill of getting lost. Bending my knees, I shimmied my body lower and back on up, bobbing my head in time to the music.
“You can dress me up in diamonds,” I sang, unable to contain the delicious fire racing through my body. Letting the lyrics pour out of me, I didn’t even need to look at the monitors. Too many times growing up I’d belted out the words to this song.
My voice low and chin tipped down as I sang the words, playing the crowd with my eyes, I looked over and smiled in surprise, seeing Tate jumping up on the stage with another microphone.
She pumped her fist in the air as we both shouted, “Ya make me wanna la la!”
The whole crowd of guys and girls went wild, jumping up and down and singing with us as I laughed and sang at the same time.
I completely lost sight of our table once the crowd got going, which was probably a good thing. I wasn’t so angry anymore, and I was thankful Tate got up there with me. It felt good to have someone on my side.
And even though I couldn’t see Madoc, I hoped he was watching. If his eyes were on me, then his lips weren’t on her.
“I see everything I want for as long as I can have it.”
He seemed so different now compared to the man who had spoken those words to me in June.
His cold demeanor was distant and silent, and I wasn’t sure if I came up here to prove something or to draw him out.
“La la la, la la la,” Tate and I kept singing, ending the song.
I bowed my head and then threw it back, swinging all of my hair out of my face. Tate hooked an arm around my neck and whispered, “He didn’t take his eyes off of you the whole time.”
My heart started pounding harder, and I wasn’t sure if it was that or the crowd’s cheers that were vibrating through my arms and legs.
I knew she was talking about Madoc, but I acted dumb anyway. “Aidan?” I asked.
She smirked at me knowingly. “No, you idiot. You know who I’m talking about.”
I refused to look over at the table, so I led the way off stage and wiped my fingers across my damp forehead.
Aidan emerged from the crowd on the dance floor and placed a hand on my hip. I stiffened as he leaned in to speak in my ear. “That was great! You’re a good singer.”
I offered a small smile and looked up when the surrounding speakers began playing regular music. The DJ announced a break, and couples wrapped their arms around each other and started dancing to the slow song.
“Would you like to dance?” Aidan shouted in my ear.
I looked around for Tate, who seemed to have disappeared, and I couldn’t see anything through the crowd. I decided this was a good way out, though. Not that there was anything wrong with Aidan, but I was done for the night.
“Sure,” I shouted back. “One before I head out.”
He grabbed my hand and led me into the middle of the mix, turning around to wrap his hands around my waist. He pulled me in, and I held his shoulders as we swayed to Green Day’s “21 Guns.”
“How do you know Madoc?” I asked.
“We’re on the team together.” His thumb was rubbing strokes on my back. “Although, he’s on the fast track. He’ll probably be captain next year,” he said, not looking particularly pleased.
Captain by sophomore year?
“He’s that good?” I asked. I’d never seen Madoc play soccer.
“No, he’s just that connected,” he shot back. “Madoc doesn’t have to earn a whole lot on his own.”
My hard eyes fell, and I was a little pissed.
I could say Madoc was an entitled little prince with the hard path of life freshly paved for him, but for some reason, I felt the need to defend him.
I’d been there when he’d quit piano and started studying cars instead. He worked hard, read a lot, and tinkered for hours to learn his way around a garage. Madoc put in the muscle when he cared and pushed things away when he didn’t.
His name may have gotten him on the team, but he wouldn’t play if he didn’t want to. And he wouldn’t play if he didn’t know he was an asset.
Aidan’s fingers were slipping in and out of the rips in my shirt, caressing my skin as he pressed himself into me more closely.
“I should probably get go—” I started to tell him good-bye but suddenly felt like I was backed up against a wall.
Aidan looked directly behind me.
“Take a hike, Aidan.” I blinked, hearing Madoc’s voice as he came around to the side.
Turning around, I looked up at him and noticed his blue eyes shooting bullets at Aidan.
Oh, no. This was a zero to sixty moment with Madoc, but we had skipped the zero part.
Aidan took his hands off my waist. “Hey, man—”
But Madoc inched into our space. “Touch her again, and I’ll chop off your hand.” He said it so matter-of-factly.
My breathing turned shallow, but my temper rose.
No, no, no . . .
Aidan rolled his eyes and backed off, probably figuring it wasn’t worth the fight. Madoc looked ready to draw blood.
I bared my teeth, shaking my damn head that felt like my brain was expanding and pressing against my skull. I was ready to explode.
“Just shut up,” he ordered, breathless. “Just shut up, and dance with me.”
Huh? Dance with him?
No hauling me out of here, screaming at me for one reason or another? No barking in my face and ordering me home?
I stood there trying to figure out what the hell was going on and barely noticed him pulling me in. Madoc’s strong hands gripped my waist, holding me tight but barely touching me otherwise. His chest was right in front of my eyes, and I slowly looked up at him.
Damn.
When he stared down at me, everything was still except for our feet that moved to the music. It was like he was searching my eyes for something.
Everything about him, the shade of his eyes, the muscles I felt under his shirt, the way I already knew how his body moved when it loved, everything about him drew me in.
I sucked in a breath, wishing he’d stop touching me and wishing I could pull away. In another minute I would. In another minute I’d be satisfied with the warmth I hadn’t felt in months or the heartbeat I could feel again.
In one more minute I would let him go.
I closed my eyes. Just. One. More. Minute.
I dug my fingers into his shoulders when his possessive hands threaded into the open back of my shirt and claimed my skin.
Not like Aidan’s light strokes. Madoc splayed his whole hand, touching me with everything he had.
I let my forehead fall into his chest, inhaling his cologne. Butterflies swarmed in my stomach, and I smiled as the flutter descended lower. It felt so good.
Looking at him, I tried to keep the shakiness out of my voice. “You have someone here with you, Madoc,” I said quietly. “Why are you dancing with me?”
He brought one hand up, holding the side of my face with a firm hand and kneading his fingers into the back of my neck. “You ask too many fucking questions,” he spat out, an angry tone to his voice.
And jerking my body into his, he slammed his mouth down on mine.
Madoc? I didn’t say his name out loud. I think I may have groaned it, but otherwise I instantly stilled.
And then I was his.
A shudder ran through me, and I felt the dampness between my legs immediately. His heat on my lips made me hungry.
He sucked in a breath and whispered, “Because I like the way you taste, okay?”
His mouth took mine once more, covering it with heat and command like he knew exactly how my body worked and what it needed.
Hell, yes.
I pushed into him, kissing him back as his arm wrapped around my waist and pulled me up into his mouth.
Hard.
I threaded my fingers across the back of his neck and moved my tongue into his mouth, massaging and tasting him. It was just us. Just this.
His lips moved across mine, going in deep, his tongue working mine, flicking out again and again to rub over my ring. He devoured me. He drew my bottom lip between his teeth, and a moan escaped me as I squeezed my eyes against the sweet pain.
Not that it hurt at all. Just kissing him, touching him, inhaling him was too much. It was like an overload on my body, and the pleasure made me want to cry out. His fingers dug into my back, and I could feel his erection through his jeans.
God, what are we doing? We were on a crowded dance floor. He had a girl with him! Jared, Tate, and Jax were probably either trying not to watch or had left already. Opening my eyes for a second, I noticed that no one was watching us though. The couples around us were focused on themselves.
“Madoc,” I barely spoke, my voice almost like a cry.
He pulled his face away, cupping my cheeks and keeping us nose to nose. We were both panting.
“I want to be inside you,” he groaned, and I thought back to our night at the skate park in the rain. “But . . .” He straightened up and dropped his hands, “I’m not going to.”
His voice was flat, void of any of the heat that was there just a minute ago.
And he walked away.
