I’m not entirely sure Olivia is completely on board with what I’ve proposed and I can’t say that I blame her. She may wear a mask and attempt to be a complete people pleaser, but it’s almost as if her guard comes down when she’s around me. Only around me is she able to be completely honest with both of us.
She’s pretending right now, though, and I can see right through the facade. She’s putting on a brave face, trying to appease me because she doesn’t want to disagree with me. It’s almost like she’s holding a palm full of sand, attempting to keep it from slipping through the cracks between her fingers.
And I’m as much of a liar as her right now.
We’re already both too invested, but neither of us are going to be the ones to admit it first.
Taking my chance, I move closer to her. I watch the column of her throat move as she swallows nervously. Her eyes are trained on mine, bouncing back and forth. Reaching out for her, I gently cup the side of her face, my thumb stroking her smooth, soft skin.
“You don’t have to be afraid of me, baby,” I murmur, watching her eyelids flutter closed. She turns her body to face me, her eyelids lifting as her gaze collides with mine.
“I’m not afraid of you. I’m afraid of what you’ll do to me and what it will mean for my heart.”
My throat constricts, my heart pounding rapidly in my chest. “I can’t promise what the future will hold, but I will never intentionally hurt you.”
“I know,” she whispers. She’s silent for a moment, as if she’s trying to decide what to do, before she goes and shocks both of us. She lifts up onto her knees, moving on top of me as she positions herself on my lap. Both of her hands are on my shoulders and she’s staring down at me with those hazel eyes wide open. “Do your worst to me, Sterling.”
My hand falls away from the side of her face and I’m gripping her hips as she wraps her arms around the back of my neck. Her face dips down to mine, our mouths crashing together at once. She’s in control right now and I love it. I like seeing Olivia like this. The timid, quiet girl that I’ve known my entire life is finally taking what she wants.
And she isn’t fucking holding back.
She nips at my bottom lip before I part them to let her in. She slides her tongue across the wounds that she inflicted in my flesh before sliding it against mine. Our mouths melt together and she moves in my lap, her pussy grinding against my erection through the layers of clothing that are separating us.
Our tongues tangle together and we’re lost in the moment as I steal the air from her lungs. Olivia is in the process of completely consuming me and she has no fucking clue what she’s doing to me. She’s driving me crazy with the way she moves in my lap. My grip tightens on her, my fingers digging into her flesh as I hold on to her hips.
She stills in my lap, her mouth breaking apart from mine as she stares down with a worried look washing over her irises. “Was I doing something wrong?”
My eyes drop down to her chest, watching it rise and fall with every shallow breath that escapes her. I can’t help the grin that plays on my lips, knowing I’m the one who has this effect on her, who has left her completely breathless.
“Not at all, baby,” I assure her, my hands sliding down to cup her ass as I lift her slightly. In one fluid movement, I flip her onto her back so that I’m positioned between her legs, hovering above her. “You’re doing quite the opposite and it’s driving me wild.”
A pink tint creeps across her cheeks and she gives me a shy smile. “I’m nowhere near as experienced as you are.”
“I know you had a boyfriend in high school,” I say, my voice low. “You can’t tell me you didn’t do anything with him.”
Olivia shakes her head, her eyes searching mine. “How did you know I had a boyfriend?” she questions me, her eyebrows tugging together. She doesn’t wait for my response before she continues. “We messed around but we didn’t have sex. Anytime that it got close to anything more than making out and feeling each other up, I had to shut him down. I couldn’t let it progress any further.”
Her response catches me off guard. I don’t bother responding to how I know she had a boyfriend. She probably didn’t really push it because she already knows the answer to her question. Of course my sister told me about it. Stella has this fun way of rambling when no one really cares. But anytime she ever brought up Olivia, she always had my attention.
“Why didn’t it ever go any further, Olivia?” I ask her, my voice soft as I trail my fingers across her throat and along her jawline.
Her throat bobs as she swallows roughly. Her eyes are still attached to mine and it feels almost as if she’s looking directly into my soul. I want to know why, I want her to let me in and tell me her deepest, darkest secrets. I want to know everything that goes on in that pretty little head of hers, but most importantly I want answers for why she always stopped her boyfriend when things were progressing.
“Tell me all your secrets, baby,” I murmur, cupping the side of her face as my face dips down to hers. I nip at her bottom lip and she moves underneath me, a gasp slips from her. “Bury them deep inside of me and I’ll take them to the fucking grave.”
“He wasn’t you,” she whispers, her breath skating across my skin. “It didn’t feel right and I didn’t want him to have any of my firsts.”
Lifting my head, I stare down at the beautiful girl beneath me. The one I’ve known almost all my life. The one who has been closer than anyone else has ever gotten. She’s burying her secrets inside my soul as she burrows herself into my heart and makes a home.
I figured at one point that Olivia had a crush on me but hearing her speak the words aloud has me in my feels. My heart crawls into my throat and I can’t swallow it back down. A rush of adrenaline courses through my veins and I’m lost in her eyes for a moment.
“Who were you saving your firsts for, Olivia?”
Her eyes bounce back and forth between mine before her gaze focuses on me. “You.”
Abandoning her face, I bring my hand down to the bottom hem of her shirt and begin to push it up her torso. My fingers slide across her skin, feeling every inch of her. Her body trembles beneath my touch and a ghost of a smile tugs on the corners of my lips.
“Has anyone ever touched you like this?”
Olivia bites her bottom lip and nods her head. “Yeah, but that’s not what I was talking about.”
“Show me what you mean, sunshine.”
She nods, a fire burning in her eyes. I want to dive into the flames and burn alive. She slowly pushes me away as she sits up. My hands are still on her torso, feeling her skin beneath my palms. Olivia grabs my wrists, using my hands to push her shirt up. She abandons her grip on me and I continue where she was guiding me, lifting her shirt up over her head.
I toss it onto the floor, watching her with my jaw clenched as she reaches around her back to undo her bra. My tongue darts out to wet my lips as she removes it and throws the bra onto the floor. Her eyes are on mine, wide with a mixture of excitement and nervousness.
Following her lead, I remove my own shirt and throw it onto the floor. It isn’t the same as her being naked from the waist up, but at least she isn’t the only one now. Olivia reaches for my wrists again, guiding my hands to her breasts, and I cup both of them in my palms. Her skin feels like silk as I stroke my thumbs over her pebbled nipples.
A moan slips from her lips and an inferno continues to blaze in her eyes. Dropping my mouth to one of her breasts, I pull her nipple into my mouth, swirling my tongue around it as I continue to knead her flesh with my hand. Olivia arches her back, pressing her chest closer to my face. Her hand is in my hair as I suck and taste her skin before moving to the other breast.
Lifting my head from her chest, our gazes collide and I press my lips to hers, capturing her mouth with mine. Our tongues are tangled together, her hands in my hair as she holds on to me for dear life, as if she’s afraid I’ll slip away.
Breaking apart, I pull away from her and lift myself off the bed. “Lay back for me, baby,” I murmur, reaching for her hips as she obeys. She lies back on the mattress and I strip her of her pants and underwear. My eyes trail over her body, my cock straining against my sweatpants as I drink in every goddamn inch of her.
“You’re fucking beautiful, Olivia.”
She swallows hard, her eyes meeting mine. “Don’t stop touching me, Sterling.”
The corners of my lips lift. “Never, baby.”
Leaning forward, I hook my arms under her legs and drag her to the edge of the bed. A gasp escapes her and a chuckle rumbles in my chest as I drop down onto my knees. Her pussy is in my face and it takes everything in me to not devour her instantly.
Dipping my face to the apex of her thighs, I press my lips to hers before lifting my head to look up at her. “Has anyone ever touched you like this, baby? Have they ever tasted how fucking sweet you are?”
She shakes her head, a ragged breath slipping from her lips as her chest rises and falls rapidly. “I never wanted anyone to except you.”
“And no one else ever will,” I murmur as I bury my face between her legs. She tastes like candy as I slide my tongue along her. Her hips buck and she lets out a soft moan as I swipe my tongue over her clit. I want to devour her, to push her past the point of ecstasy. I want her so lost in pleasure that no one can ever find her but me.
Moving my mouth against her, I devour her pussy. Licking, sucking, tasting the most sensitive part of her body. I roll my tongue across her clit, flicking it over and over. Olivia’s hands find my hair and her hips involuntarily buck again.
“Oh my god, Sterling,” she moans as I continue to move my tongue against her. A smirk plays on my lips and my cock throbs with need. I need to be inside her, but I need her to come all over my tongue first.
Dragging my tongue from the bottom to the top of her, I pause when I reach her clit. Drawing it in between my lips, I roll my tongue around it while simultaneously sucking on her flesh. She’s a mess of moans, writhing under my touch as I continue to fuck her with my mouth. Taking a finger, I slide it along her center, slowly pressing it inside as I play with her clit.
Olivia’s slowly coming undone, her orgasm building deep inside as I begin to pump my finger in and out of her pretty pussy. She’s so fucking tight, so fucking wet. Jesus Christ, I’m going to get so lost in her, and I’m completely fine with that.
“That’s it, baby,” I murmur against her pussy as I curl my finger inside of her, pressing against the soft pad of flesh inside. “Come for me. I want to taste you on my tongue.”
“I’m so close, Sterling.” She lets out a strangled moan, her hands gripping my hair tighter. “Don’t stop.”
“Let go for me, Olivia. Let me be the one who brings you the most pleasure.”
I dive back in, my mouth suctioned to her pussy as I move my tongue around her clit. My finger moves in and out of her, stroking her G-spot every time. It isn’t long before her pussy is clenching my finger and she’s crying out. Her orgasm hits her fucking hard, her entire body shattering as I taste her on my tongue.
Her body shakes as an earthquake of pleasure tears through her. Her legs are quaking, her thighs clamping the sides of my head as I continue to lick and suck her arousal. Slowly drawing my finger from her pussy, I release her from my mouth. My chin is wet from her release and I wipe it away with the back of my hand as I rise to my feet.
Olivia lays on the bed, her legs spread wide open as she stares up at me with a dazed look in her eyes. “That was the most amazing thing I’ve ever felt.”
Reaching for the waistband of my pants, I begin to push them and my boxer briefs down my thighs. “That’s just the beginning, sunshine.”
She lifts her heavy head, her eyes dropping down to my cock as I inch closer to her. “Wait, Sterling.”
I pause at the edge of the bed, my heart in my throat as I tilt my head to the side. “What’s wrong, baby? We don’t have to if you aren’t ready.”
“No, it’s not that,” she shakes her head, a pink tint creeping across her cheeks. “I don’t think it’s going to fit. I mean, I don’t know. You’re big… like, really big.”
A chuckle rumbles in my chest. “I promise you we can make it fit. And I’ll try my best not to hurt you.”
Her throat bobs as she swallows hard before lifting her gaze back to mine. “I trust you, Sterling,” she says softly, a smile pulling on her lips. “And I want you more than anything.”
Crawling up onto the bed, I settle between her legs. Planting my hands on either side of her head, I stare down at her as the tip of my cock presses against her soaked pussy. “Are you on birth control? Because I want to feel you without anything between us.”
Olivia nods. “I am.”
“Thank God,” I breathe out a sigh of relief. “Are you good with that, sunshine?”
She nods again. “I don’t want anything between us either. I want to feel you inside me… every inch.”
An involuntary groan escapes me and I feel like I could explode in this instance. Keeping my eyes on hers, I slowly push inside her. She gasps, her eyes widening as I stop halfway before pulling out slightly. “I’m going to work myself in to help with the pain. It might be uncomfortable, but I promise I’ll take care of you, my sweet girl.”
She looks up at me with nothing but trust in her eyes. My heart swells as it pounds erratically in my chest. I’ve never been anyone’s first before and I can’t believe that I’m hers. Words can’t describe the emotions that are building within me right now. There’s literally nothing that comes close to touching how this moment feels with her.
Slowly easing into her, she lets out another gasp as I begin with shallow, slow thrusts. With each one, I inch in deeper. Her legs wrap around my waist and I drop down onto my forearms as I capture her lips with my own. Maybe if I can distract her with my mouth, it will help ease her pain and let her focus solely on the pleasure.
Her tongue slides against mine and I steal the air from her lungs as I continue to slowly fuck her tight pussy. She clenches around me and I press into her deeper, swallowing her moans. Her body stills and I know in that moment that I officially took her virginity. And she willingly handed this moment over to me.
Drawing my hips back, I pull out a little bit before sliding back into her. Her legs tighten around my waist and her hands are on my back. Her nails dig into my skin as she suddenly becomes overwhelmed with pleasure since she’s able to ignore any discomfort.
I’m so close to exploding, I don’t know how much longer I can hold it in with the way her pussy tightens around me. She’s so wet and I feel the warmth beginning to flood my body. My balls are constricting, drawing closer to my body as I pick up the speed, fucking her with an urgency.
She’s moaning in my mouth as her tongue tangles with mine, and it isn’t long before she’s writhing underneath me. Her pussy feels like a vise grip, tightening around my cock as she shatters into a million pieces around me. That’s all it takes to send me over the edge. I had every intention of pulling out, but I can’t stop myself as my orgasm hits me like a fucking Mack truck.
I lose myself in her completely and we both free fall into the abyss of euphoria.
I’m drowning in her and I never want to come up for air.
