The temperature seems to have dropped twenty degrees from when I walked into Bristol House to when I stormed out of it. A frigid gust of wind blasts me in the face and chills the tips of my ears as I trudge toward the parking lot.
See? This is why I avoid the whole girlfriend drama. I should be over the fucking moon tonight because the team crushed Harvard. Instead, I’m pissed off and frustrated and more upset than I expected to be. Hannah’s right—we were just fooling around. Same way I was fooling around with Kendall, or the chick before her, or the chick before that. I didn’t even bat an eye when I ended it with any of them, so why the hell am I so bummed right now?
Thank fuck I got out of there, though. I had been seconds away from making a complete fool of myself. Saying things I shouldn’t be saying, maybe even begging. Jesus. If that’s not a sign of some serious pussy-whipping right there, then I don’t know what is.
I’m halfway to my Jeep when I hear Hannah call out my name.
My chest clenches. I turn around and see her racing down the path from Bristol to the lot. She’s still in her PJ’s—plaid pants and a black T-shirt with yellow music notes decaled on the front.
I’m tempted to keep walking, but the sight of her bare arms and cold-flushed cheeks pisses me off even more than our fight had. “Jesus Christ, Hannah,” I mutter when she reaches me. “You’re gonna catch a cold.”
“That’s a myth,” she shoots back. “Cold weather doesn’t cause colds.”
But she’s visibly shivering, and when she wraps her arms around herself and starts rubbing her bare skin to keep warm, I rumble in annoyance and hurriedly unzip my jacket.
Gritting my teeth, I drape the coat over her shoulders. “Here.”
“Thanks.” She looks as annoyed as I feel. “What the hell is wrong with you, Garrett? You can’t just storm off in the middle of a serious discussion!”
“There was nothing left to discuss.”
“Bullshit.” She angrily shakes her head. “You didn’t even let me talk!”
“Yes, I did,” I answer flatly. “And trust me, you said plenty.”
“I can barely remember what I said. You know why? Because you totally caught me off guard and didn’t even give me a second to think about it.”
“What’s there to think about? You’re either into me, or you’re not.”
Hannah makes a frustrated noise. “You’re not being fair again. Just because you suddenly decide you’re ready for a relationship and that we should be together doesn’t mean that I’m going to squeal like a sorority girl and say, wheee, yay! You clearly had time to think about it, and absorb it, but you didn’t give me any time at all. You just barged in and made accusations and ran out.”
I experience a pang of guilt. She has a point. I did come over tonight fully knowing what I wanted from her.
“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about the Justin date,” she says quietly. “But I’m not going to apologize for needing more than five frickin’ seconds to think about the possibility of you and me being a couple.”
My breath comes out in a white puff that quickly gets carried away by the wind. “I’m sorry I ran off,” I concede. “But I’m not sorry that I want to be with you.”
Those beautiful green eyes probe my face. “Do you still want that?”
I nod. Then I gulp. “Do you?”
“Depends.” She slants her head. “Will we be exclusive?”
“Fuck yeah,” I say without hesitation. The thought of her seeing anyone else is like a machete to the gut.
“Are you okay with taking it slow?” She shifts awkwardly. “Because with the showcase coming up, and the holidays, and exams, and your game schedule…we’ll both start to get busy and I can’t promise to see you every second of the day.”
“We see each other when we see each other,” I say simply.
I’m surprised by how calm I sound, how composed I’m staying when there’s a herd of excited butterflies thumping in my stomach and shouting hells yeah at top-volume. Jeez. I’m about to complicate my life by inviting a girlfriend into it, yet somehow I’m one hundred percent cool with that.
“Then okay.” Hannah smiles at me. “Let’s make it official.”
A dark cloud obscures some of my happiness. “What about Justin?”
“What about him?”
“You told him you’d go out with him,” I say through clenched teeth.
“Actually, I canceled the date before I came out here.”
The dumb butterflies inside me take flight again. “You did?”
She nods.
“So you’re not all hot for him anymore?”
Humor dances in her eyes. “I’m hot for you, Garrett. Only you.”
Just like that, my anxiety dissolves into a burst of pure joy that brings a grin to my lips. “Damn right you are.”
Rolling her eyes, she moves in and rubs her cold cheek against my chin. “Now can we please go inside? I’m freezing my butt off and I need my fluffer to warm me up.”
I narrow my eyes. “Excuse me?”
She blinks innocently. “Oh, I’m sorry. Did I say fluffer?” Her smile lights up her whole face. “I meant boyfriend.”
Sweetest words I’ve ever heard in my life.
