Delamonte’s wrap party should’ve been the crowning highlight of my trip, a celebration of everything we’d accomplished over the past three days.
Instead, I spent the entirety of it replaying that afternoon in my head.
The memory of my kiss with Christian stayed with me through dessert, as did the phantom brush of his touch. With one zip of my dress, he’d awoken more heat in me than any of my previous partners had with actual sex.
I’d suppressed it during dinner, but the heat blossomed again as the bedroom door closed behind us.
We hadn’t spoken since dinner ended, but the mere anticipation of what could happen rasped against my skin as surely as a calloused touch.
The air hummed with breathlessness as Christian walked to the dresser, his lean, powerful form slicing through the darkness like a freshly honed blade through silk.
Blood roared in my ears and drowned out everything except my heartbeats and the soft rustle of his movements.
“You don’t have any other commitments tonight, I presume.” His tone was relaxed, but when he turned, his eyes smoldered with so much heat I thought I would combust from the sheer intensity of it.
An electric current tied our gazes together as he removed his cufflinks with a slow, deliberate preciseness that made my mouth go dry.
Rough hands. Whiskey eyes. Control.
“No.”
The whisper drifted down and tightened my nipples into hard, aching points.
My lungs barely expanded with my attempts to inhale and exhale.
“Good.” Clink. Clink. The sounds of his cufflinks hitting the silver tray echoed in the dark and throbbed low in my belly. “Take off your dress, Stella.”
His deceptively soft command burned up all the oxygen in the room and set every molecule of my body ablaze.
My breaths shallowed.
This was it.
The fork in the road.
I could stick with the safe path and tell him no, or I could throw caution to the wind and do what my heart and body were screaming at me to do.
I held Christian’s gaze as I reached behind me.
A minute later, my dress pooled around my feet in a puddle of white silk.
No bra, no accessories, just a tiny scrap of underwear and a heart beating too fast.
Christian’s expression didn’t shift.
Standing there bared and open to him, I would’ve thought him unmoved had it not been for his eyes. Black pupils swallowed amber as he closed the distance between us, and the closer he got, the hotter I burned.
“Tell me.” The tiny glide of his finger over my hip was enough to send my pulse into overdrive. “Do you want sex, or do you want to be fucked?”
My thighs involuntarily clenched at the way he said fucked. It was the dark purr of a predator toying with its prey, making them beg for their own destruction before it pounced.
The only difference was, I didn’t feel like prey.
I had a choice, and I’d never felt more powerful.
Moisture gathered between my thighs. I was so wet I could feel it slicking my skin, but I was still half tempted to take the safe route. To have easy, ordinary sex where I didn’t have to bare any part of myself except my body.
My mind warred with every other part of me for control.
Do you want sex, or do you want to be fucked?
I’d kept my desires caged for so long, but perhaps it was finally time I set them free.
I didn’t want soft kisses and gentle caresses.
I wanted skin and blood. I wanted nails scratching down his back and bruises on my hips.
The commands. The release. The oblivion.
I wanted it all.
“I want to be fucked.” My whisper was barely audible.
“I can’t hear you.” His fingers glided over the dampness of my panties, and I fought back a moan at the delicious friction.
Embarrassment and lust blazed through me in equal measure.
“I want to be fucked,” I repeated.
Stronger this time, more confident, but it wasn’t enough.
“Louder, Stella. Use your voice.” His voice hardened, his words pitiless. “Tell me what you want.”
He pressed a firm thumb to my clit, his touch as brutal as his command. White-hot sensation sparked through me and drowned out my embarrassment.
“I want to be fucked!” The words exploded out of me, raw and filtered, followed by a needy moan when Christian rubbed his thumb over me.
His smile was that of a dangerously seductive monster promising all sorts of filthy, debauched deeds. “That’s what I thought.”
He tore my underwear off with one sharp tug before his mouth crashed over mine, swallowing my gasp and ensuing moan when he fisted my hair hard enough to make my eyes water.
The hard tug arrowed to my core like there was an electric wire directly linking the two. My scalp throbbed in rhythm with my clit, and my mind was so clouded by desire I didn’t notice we’d moved until my back hit the bed.
I watched as Christian shed his clothes, revealing broad, sculpted shoulders and a sexy V-cut that led down to his…
Oh my God.
My mouth dried at the sight of his cock. Long, thick, and hard, with a bead of pre-cum glistening at its tip. It was so big that I involuntarily clenched at the thought of it filling me.
The mattress dipped beneath his weight, and his thumb found my clit again, circling and stroking until it was swollen and needy and begging for more.
“How would you like to be fucked, Butterfly?” He kept his thumb on my clit and pushed a finger inside me, working it deeper with each movement. A whimper clawed up my throat as my body lit beneath his erotic manipulations. “On your back and spread wide, or on all fours taking every inch of my cock in that tight little pussy?”
Had I not been lost in a haze of lust, I might’ve been embarrassed by his filthy words. But I was too far gone, and Christian was the only man I’d ever truly fantasized about.
He was every dark thing that couldn’t be whispered and dirty deed that I secretly craved.
“Both.” More whimpers poured out when he worked another finger inside me and pumped both in and out—slowly at first, then faster and faster until he found a rhythm that made my head spin. “As hard as you can.”
I heard a groan, followed by a harsh command.
“Get on your hands and knees.”
I did as I was told. The cool air brushed my sensitized sex as I turned and positioned myself on all fours. I was drenched, dripping all down my thighs and probably ruining the sheets before we even started.
I heard the faint rip of foil before the heat of Christian’s body enveloped me. He fisted my hair with one hand and gripped my hip with the other hard enough to bruise.
“Remember…” I let out a small cry when he yanked my head back until his mouth was next to my ear. The head of his cock slid against my slick entrance, until I practically panting with anticipation. “You wanted it hard.”
He released my hair, pushed me face down on the pillow, and slammed inside me with a single powerful thrust.
I let out a small cry. I was wet enough that he slid in easily, but he was so big it was almost painful.
Pain warred with pleasure as my eyes watered and my inner muscles stretched to their max.
“Fuck, you’re tight.” Another, more guttural groan. “That’s it, sweetheart. You can take it.”
Christian held on tight to my hips and stroked his thumbs over the curve of my ass in soothing sweeps while I struggled to accommodate his size.
My breaths came out in soft pants. I was impossibly full, but gradually, the pain subsided and gave way to delicious pressure.
My teeth unclenched enough for a low moan to slip out.
I pushed back at him, desperate for more.
More friction, more movement, more anything.
I heard a chuckle, followed by a soft “good girl”.
Then Christian slammed into me again, this time with such viciousness it knocked the breath out of my lungs.
I squealed, my mind blanking at the sudden, forceful invasion. Dark pleasure burst through me, and I barely had time to catch my breath before he started moving again.
One hand stayed on my hip while the other pressed against the back of my neck, forcing my face deeper into the pillow.
Rough hands.
Savage strokes.
A punishing, carnal rhythm that coaxed moan after moan out of my mouth.
“You feel so fucking good,” Christian grunted. “It’s like your pussy was made for me. Every fucking inch.”
He withdrew so just the tip remained inside me, paused, then plunged back in with one brutal thrust. Again and again, until the headboard banged against the wall and drowned out my muffled squeals and whimpers.
Tears and drool soaked my pillow as Christian pounded me mercilessly. I’d been reduced to a wreck, held together with nothing but mind-numbing pleasure and the softest pricks of pain.
It wasn’t sex. It was pure, hard fucking…and it was exactly what I needed.
The guys I’d previously slept with had treated me like I was a porcelain doll in bed. Their intentions were good, but the sex had excited me as much as a game of golf.
I didn’t want gentle. I wanted passion in its rawest form. I wanted the oblivion that came with pleasure and the knowledge that, no matter what form that pleasure came in, I could trust the person delivering it not to hurt me.
Because as rough as Christian was, I’d never felt safer.
Another cry fell from my lips when he wrapped his fist around my hair and yanked my head back again.
“You’re dripping all over my cock, sweetheart. Look at you.” He swept his thumb over my damp cheek. I was a mess, my face streaked with tears and my body trembling with lust. “An angel about to come from being fucked like a whore.”
An electric shiver moved through my entire body at his words.
“Please,” I sobbed. “I need—I can’t—please…”
I didn’t know what I was begging for. For release, for him to go harder, for this never to end.
All I knew was, he was the only one who could give it to me.
“Please what?” Christian kept one hand fisted in my hair while he reached his other around to my sensitized sex.
“Please, I need to…”
My reply devolved into a hoarse scream when he pinched my clit. My brain short circuited, and my body spiked with pleasure so intense I instinctively tried to scoot away.
I only made it a few inches before Christian dragged me back.
“Try that again, and I’ll spank you so hard you won’t be able to sit.” I yelped when his palm landed on my ass with a warning slap. He lifted his hand and closed it around my throat. “I want to feel you coming on my cock, Stella.” His fingers dug harder into my skin with each word.
I could only answer with a string of unintelligible moans. I’d lost my voice to the need coiled beneath my skin, threatening to split me apart at the seams and turn me into the ruins of the person I once was.
The one who’d played it safe her entire life, who’d been so afraid of going after what she wanted that she didn’t dare voice her desires out loud.
She’d shattered beneath Christian’s touch, and I never wanted her back.
I closed my eyes, picturing the obscene image we must’ve made. Me on all fours, my head pulled back and my back arched while Christian pounded me from behind. One hand around my throat, the other hand fisting my hair. A faint red mark from when his palm struck my ass…
Heat moved down my spine, building and building until I exploded into a thousand brilliant pinpoints of light. They raced through my veins and lit a match to every nerve ending until they consumed me whole.
Oh God. No wonder other people raved about sex. If that was what it was supposed to be like…
I was still clinging to the remnants of my orgasm when Christian flipped me over onto my back. His arms bracketed my body, and his mouth grazed mine as his thrusts slowed into…not something soft, but softer. More sensual.
“I can still feel your pussy rippling around my cock.” He cupped my breast and rubbed his thumb over the stiff peak. “As beautiful as I imagined.”
He kissed me harder, his mouth claiming mine and his hands mapping my most erogenous zones as he fucked me toward another orgasm.
“Right there,” I panted when he hit a spot inside me that made my toes curl. I clung to him, my legs spread wide to take him as deep as he could go. “Harder. Please, I…oh God…” My moans pitched higher when he increased his pace and the tremors of a second climax quaked through me.
Slowly at first, then all at once when Christian pinched my nipple and drove into me with as much force as the beginning of the night.
I cried out as wave after wave of pleasure washed through me.
I felt him shudder and jerk inside me before he, too, came with a groan, but I was swept up in euphoria so intense it drowned out everything else.
It went on for what felt like forever before I finally slumped into a sweaty, mindless heap.
For once, the voices inside my head were silent. I was floating on a cloud of post-orgasmic bliss, and I wanted to stay there forever.
No doubts, no insecurities, no overanalyzing. Just the soft, ragged sounds of my breaths and the press of Christian’s mouth against my skin as he kissed his way down my neck and torso.
The gentleness of his touch was at complete odds with the savagery of his fucking, but it felt so right I didn’t question it.
I nearly purred with contentment when he rolled me onto my side and smoothed a hand over my ass. His strong fingers kneaded the muscle until I melted into a boneless puddle.
“You did so well,” he murmured. “Such a good girl.”
His words wrapped around me like a soft blanket and sparked another ember of heat in my stomach.
I guess that was what happened when girls with a need for academic validation grew up. They developed a praise kink.
“We should do this every night,” I said drowsily. It’d been a long day, and as much as I wanted a second round, I was so tired I could barely keep my eyes open. “It’s better than yoga.”
He laughed, a soft rumble of noise that was pure male satisfaction.
“I can’t think of a higher compliment.” He moved his body up until he lay next to me and dropped a kiss on top of my head. “No complaints from me if you want to make this your nightly routine instead.”
“Hmm.” I closed my eyes and snuggled closer to him.
As soft as this moment was, a part of me knew Christian and I had entered dangerous new territory in our relationship. And while my self-preservation instincts were doing their best to ring the alarm, I also knew there was no going back.
